Light to Her Darkness

Chapter 14

Adrian's house was just as I remembered. The white furniture was placed neatly into the living room matching the white curtains that we bought together. The room screamed class and elegance and not one thing was out of place.

I swallowed the lump in my throat and slowly walked toward the room where Lily used to live. Nothing has changed in the past eight months.

I could feel the rapid beating of my heart when I touched the doorknob. I don't know why I was hesitating. I wanted to see Lily for so long and now she is just a door away and all I could think is what if she is better off without me? 

I sighed and opened the door only to reveal a tiny figure of my sister sleeping in this huge bed that was swallowing her in. My eyes shifted to the lady sitting on the couch with a magazine looking at me through her reading glasses. Mrs. Walter worked as the caretaker of this house even before me and Adrian started dating. She knew what I did to him and I'm pretty sure by looking at her expressions she isn't a fan of me either. 

An ugly scowl formed on her face just by looking at me. I ignored her presence as I looked at my little sister.

"She's tired. She was up since morning." Mrs. Walter said as she got up and left us to give us some privacy. I walked towards Lily and relief washed over me.

Her face held more color than before and she was looking so much better. Maybe she really was better off without me. I was just adding up her burden and that is something I wouldn't allow. A tear rolled down my eyes as I smiled looking at a small angel sleeping before me. Seeing her better, brought relief in me. But something in me stirred and I realized, I am not good for her.

I should leave and let her be with Adrian. He loves her like a daughter and she is not even his blood. He is a good person she would need him as a guardian, she needs him as her ideal person. I can't be in this picture. I would ruin that. I have to leave.

I took a step back, I need to leave before she woke up. Why did I come here in the first place? I rushed out of the room, running towards the door, I need to get out before Lily wakes up. I can't do this to her. She doesn't need me, I shouldn't be a burden to her or Adrian's life.

I rushed out of her room and slowly closed her door not wanting to wake her up. I turned and rushed toward the main door when I collided with a rock-hard body. My balance wavered but before I could hit the floor a pair of hands grabbed my waist preventing me to fall.

My body immediately recognized the touch of his hands as goosebumps spread all over my body. The heat was radiating off his body caressing every inch of me. I felt like I was melting under his touch. For so long... so long I've craved his touch, dreamed his touch, his closeness, his warmth but when my eyes met his no warmth was there, only, wrath.

I immediately backed away from him, fearing that he might push me away and hurt me all over again. I sidestepped him as I was walking away from him towards the door when he grabbed my wrist in a gentle hold. I turned to meet his eyes and saw that his eyes were red. His face held the anger but he was trying his best to hide it.

"Where are you going?" he asked in a low but gentle voice. I swallowed as I looked at his beautifully structured face. How did someone as godly as him; even wants to be with someone so... ordinary like me?

"Away". I answered truthfully. 

"Why?" he said furrowing his brows in confusion. "Haven't you met Lily yet?" He continued as my vision started getting blurry. I shook my head and started walking away again but the grip on my hand tightened as he said, "What happened?"

"Please. Just let go." My voice was barely a whisper but audible enough for him to hear."You're not stepping a foot out of here unless you tell me what happened?"