Beyond Repair - A Lumity Therapist AU

Chapter 7

"I'm no stranger to fucking up"
-Girl In Pieces

"Love is indeed precious and something to treasure – but while a human can love and admire the moon from afar, they should never expect the moon to be able to feel the same."
-unknown-

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"So... what are we now? Do you... do you feel the same way? What's this between us?"

'You hurt her'

I know...

'Do you really? Cuz if you did you wouldn't have done that to her'

"Wait, please!" She choked back. "Please.. please reconsider," she pleaded. "I can't.. I want you Luz.. please.."

'She's been helping to fix yourself yet this is how you repay her? How selfish'

It's not selfish! They.. all of them said that I deserve my shot at happiness too... it's not-

'You believe that? You said it yourself; they're just using you to make themselves feel good. As if they've done the impossible by making sure you're fixed'

"Think back on how you feel with me!"

'What's there to feel? The pity she feels for you?'

No... Amity.. Amity's being genuine... she does.. she does like me!

'Yet you rejected her?'

Luz sighed, exhausted with the day they had. First King, then the therapy she was supposed to go to, then dad... and Amity...

"But how am I supposed to move on from something that didn't even happen!"

Amity...

Luz stopped in their tracks. They just lost Amity.

Luz whimpered, dragging her cheeks down with the palm of her hands. Sniffling, Luz thought; 'Can't believe I just did that to her..'

'But... I didn't completely lose her... like I said.. I'll still be keeping her as a friend'

'But what if she runs away from you? What if... what if she just can't handle your rejection? What if she can't stand to see you anymore? That just the thought of you would make her sick? What if-'

Luz shook her head. 'This won't solve anything.'

Deciding that succumbing to their thoughts would be the least wise decision as of now, Luz pulled out her earphones that were coiled around her neck and let the music take over their thoughts.

Minutes of silence- nothing but the sounds of music leaking out from Luz's earphones- ultimately, Luz caught a glimpse of the empty house they were so desperate to run away from mere hours ago.

Boots that were hastily put on finally came to a stop. The watch on the left arm shows 2.45 am. Body slightly shivering from the cold. Hands stopped midway from the doorknob. The skin so close Luz could practically feel the cold metal against the tips of their fingers. The chilling static causes goosebumps all over her skin.

Skin tingling. Breath hollow. Eyes stinging and crusty from all the crying.

A deep staggering breath.

And the door flings open.

The sight of the dark living room greeted the brunette. Still untouched. Left just the same as it did before.

Left hand still clutched on the doorknob, Luz suspired a breath of relief.

Honestly, they didn't know what she was expecting.