Vent book h e h e

Yo

uh,,, just watched a movie abt cyber bullying w my mom,, it was h o r r i b l e 

She basically called my bf an asshole just bc I didn't know him irl, when the girl in the movie 's bullies were people from her school on some shitty old looking website- and I've been randomly feeling super overwhelmed and my fucky wucky ass bitch brain keeps telling me to shhhhhhh but I don't,, but ahhh it's so tempting wtff 

Thankfully I won't , mostly my bf is my motivation- and it's harder not to think about when I have scissors in my room which I realize is not great and I'll remove them tmrw bc I have to sleep soon- and I was in so much pain earlier for no reason and i feel like I'm dying,, I rlly want therapy but google is not fucking helping me and I feel like I'm having a 3 day long mental breakdown and everything feels like it's getting worse and oh shit, haha

Not to mention

My friend might be dying

And I now definitely know there are at least 4 suicidal or almost suicidal people in my class, and the energy is not helping at all and I wish I could just never do anything again bc I'm so stressed for no reason aaaahhhhhh 

And I mean,, I thought since I'm poly I could just feel more love like yaaaay but then I confess to my friend and she's uncomfortable with me being poly and I'm not blaming her I just didn't think she would reject me because of that, and I'm almost feeling like I shouldn't be poly, but ik I can't help it, I know I love jasper sm and I have a crush on Leah(friend) so idfkk

Holy shit I'm ranting 

I guess I just want someone to hug me, and tell me everything's gonna be ok even tho idk if it will 

Byeee <3