Vent book h e h e

:)

So uh

Just

Me

Being my usual horrible self

I'm trying to die I swear I took 20 pills they just suck

Maybe if I use the acid ones they would work 

But idk if I wanna die yet.. cuz I want real children yk? And I haven't even kissed my gf yet.. 

It's always at night or in the morning when I'm depressed, but at least I'm not at home or w my mom rn,, she always makes it worse haha,-

I

I want 

I wanna hug my friends. And just.. feel loved. Really loved. My emo gf moved and just got another gf, so I mean idrc they're poly but ig I didn't need to feel like a horrible person for not talking to her since she moved. I always feel like I ruin peoples lives and the only evidence of that is what happened a while ago w my first partner, but now I'm always questioning everything like they totally don't love me anymore so wtf am I doing being so depressed over this haha like whaaa hahaha why do I wanna kms every time it's just insults but I mean there's almost nothing for me to live for anymore , I thought online was my whole life but it feels like that's slipping away from me and I feel like I have nothing left

But this will all be nothing when school starts. Or maybe I'll be the depressed kid again. Idc.

 <3