"What do you like actually?"
I was tucking the blanket that's covering over Dong Min's legs and he asked that out of the blue.
He injured his leg and he needs a cast on it.
Training or whatsoever, he gotta give up on it for at least 2 months.
So he will be attending school again just like normal days.
And we just came back from the hospital.
"You know what I like."
"I mean what you want to be. Like how I want to be an idol now."
That makes me look at him.
"Why did you even go for the competition when you don't like it?"
He asked again when i said nothing.
I just pushed him to lay down on the bed.
"Jal. I'll come and get you tomorrow. You still need to put lenses for me."
I pointed at my eyes before turning around, picking up my bag.
I was going to leave his room but he said something else which stops me.
"You never give up on something that you really like. If you were being ask to choose, you always choose what you like. You never choose something else."
His voice came out so soft.
Maybe because it's already dark and i only turn on the night lamp in his room instead of the lights, it looks dreamy when i stare at my own shadow that's reflecting on the floor.
"And today, you choose me."
He ended his sentence with that and I unintentionally took in a breath.
"If you need to choose between me and something that you genuinely like, what will you choose?"
I think we knew it actually.
That we like each other.
But none of us took a step forward, neither backwards.
It just stays there.
Our relationship.
And now, he decided to take a step forward.
Turning around, i met his eyes.
"But you know what i really like? Genuinely? You should know that i don't like Judo now. I just find it interesting."
I said, talking in a tone that I always use.
He had sit up from the bed again and he stares me.
"You like to write. But you never show me your writing."
I bobbed my head.
"So you know."
He sighed a bit.
"Then what is your answer?"
"Mwo?"
He pursed his lips in defeat, "Yah," He groaned but i cut him off.
"Isn't it obvious? Aishh, i enter the competition just because of who? If you don't know, jal! I'm tired."
I just give him a distaste look before getting out from his room as I shut the door behind me.
My heart;
It's thumping.
For 13 years, i think my heart never beat this fast until now.
