Stares.
He just stares at me the whole time when I'm driving.
"Mian."
Hearing him saying that, I turn to look at him when I stop at the red light.
"For what?"
Song Kang oppa give me a sad look.
"For making you cry."
"Do you even know what I cry for?"
I questioned back and he look down at his hands.
"I don't know actually but I'm sorry. At least I know it's because of me."
At least he knows.
I drive again when it's green light.
"Bo Min called me this afternoon. I thought I wouldn't feel anxious when I date you but I freaked out when I found out that you are lying to me. You said you are doing the photoshoot with Bo Min but he's at the dorm."
"I didn't mean to lie to you,"
I let out a breath and he went quiet.
"I hate lies. To me, it means you could be having another women behind my back. Because that's how appa start lying to omma that he has to stay late every night at the office for work. It turn out that he's having an affair with his assistant, like a drama. So I never lie to you about anything."
White lie or bad lie;
Is still a lie anyway.
And I don't do any.
"Jinjja mian. I just don't want you to know that we are working together. You would feel awkward too. It's already awkward enough when you bring me back home to see your mom and he's there."
I puffed out my lips while glancing at him.
"Still, if you honestly tell me, I wouldn't go."
"You would be anxious too if you know both of us are working together anniya?"
Giving a thought about that, that could happen too.
"You cry because I lie to you?"
Song Kang oppa asked carefully.
"Anniyo."
"Then why did you cry? Hmm?"
He give me a pout and I sighed.
"I couldn't describe how I feel with words so I cried. I find that this world is so unfair to a ridiculous extent so I cried. Is it because I born 3 years later than you? So the one I met since young is Dong Min and not you? If I met you first, then I wouldn't be feeling all kinds of pain that dumbass gave me. Anni, those 20 years can't even win over our few months together. Does that even make sense?"
I end up babbling things.
He end up chuckling at me.
So I got sulky.
Ah jinjja, if I date Song Kang oppa since the beginning then all these wouldn't happened.
I wouldn't need to train like crazy.
I wouldn't need to be like a zombie for few years.
"Don't touch me. I am mad that you lie to me."
I nudged his hand away when he caresses my head.
"Ah wae? I said sorry."
"You think a sorry is enough? You must be dreaming!"
He chuckle again and I frowned at him after I stopped the car because we arrived at his condominium building.
