"There's still no improvement?"
Professor asked me and I shook my head.
"Don't give up. It might really came back when you didn't expect it."
He give me a smile and I did the same.
It's my medical appointment today and I actually tell Do Hyun oppa not to follow me.
I almost need to beg him not to come with me.
Because I didn't want him to hear that there's no way I could get back my scent of smell.
That I will be like that forever.
The Baek Jin Yeong who love food can never come back.
"I really hope your brain scan continues to be clean like this for three years."
He said when he look at the computer and I bite my lips.
Three years.
I safely passed one year.
There's two more years to go.
This is the reason why I actually didn't want to rush into marriage.
Because there is a possibility that my cancer could come back.
As at now, I just want to give Do Hyun oppa what I could give him.
Even my virginity.
I want to love him as much as I could.
If something really happen to me again, I rather he lost a girlfriend instead of losing a wife.
I didn't want him to be a widow.
And I know for sure that he will never be able to forget me no matter.
Regardless of whether I'm his girlfriend or his wife.
"If it comes back again, mostly likely will be when?"
Once I asked that, the atmosphere in the room actually became serious.
Because I'm really serious with that question.
That's why Do Hyun oppa can't be here.
He will be mad at me for even asking that.
"You asked as if you expected the cancer to come back."
"I did. I imagined the worst case situation on myself every day. And you even said you really hope that it's clear for three years. You hope. Meaning there's no guarantee it won't come back. I mean, no one can guarantee."
I cupped my chin as I muttered.
"If it reoccur, the tumor will be on the same spot?"
"Jin Yeong-sshi."
The doctor called out and I remain staring at the scan.
"Just...I'm not good at keeping hopes high. Professor-nim, just tell me nae?
He let out breath before gesturing to the brain scan.
"It always starts from the same spot but it's possible for it to grow somewhere near here and here."
Coming out from the room, I let out a breath in need to ease the pain I feel on my chest.
It hurts to know how heart broken Do Hyun oppa will be if I'm gone one day.
And it's making me tear up which I'm blinking it away while making my way out from the hospital.
I wish I could worry about nothing when I'm so happy with him.
