Panic

Sorry

Akaashis pov:
I made my way to the back of the field not caring about the rain pelting down on me as I eventually collapsed by a tree, I looked up slowly to notice Bokuto had kept his distance, he was close but not close enough, not as close as I needed him to be, but it was my fault I shouldn't of pushed him I should of at least said something, I moved myself to the side hinting for him to sit next to me, Luckily he understood and cautiously made his way to me, its not that he was scared I can tell he knew I wouldn't hurt him he was scared he'd break me. My tears stopped burning as the realization kicked in they became full of sadness again and regret "I'm sorry I pushed you, I feel so lost Bokuto, I feel like I'm a failure if I don't pass with flying colours I feel like if I don't do amazing I might as well not even be here, I just want to play volleyball with the team but I'm losing my love for the game because everything I think of it I think of school and it ends in a circle I feel so lost." I can't stop the words pouring out my mouth as I shuffle myself to lay my legs over Bokutos my arms softly wrapping around him as I sobbed into his shoulder "I'm not very good with advice Akaashi but. . . when we're in college it'll all be okay I mean hey I'm in my final year I'm definitely not as smart as you but I'm going to college"
I smile softly nudging him for the self-degradation as my tears begin to slow "You are smart Bokuto-senpai" I know Bokuto wants to answer back but he bites his tongue and keeps it to himself.

He softly holds my hand pulling it to his "It'll be okay Akaashi" I blush softly staring at my hand settled in his "Bokuto I don't want you to go" he tilts his head staring at me in confusion "Hum? I'm not going anywhere school ends in an hour we still have time" I try not to face palm as I look down at the floor "I mean I'm not ready for you to go to college Bokuto you're my star I'm scared to go through a year without you", I noticed Bokutos expression change he looked astonished as if he wasn't aware that I felt this way "Wait what? I thought you'd be somewhat happy to stop babysitting me" Bokuto chuckles nervously trying to rationalize my confession "Bokuto I would do anything to have you stay. . .I've spent the last 3+ years with you I. . .Love you Bokuto and" I'm cut off by Bokuto choking on his own breath, I can't help but look up at him in panic but I'm met by a smirk across his face as if he had just pranked me "Akaashiiii"
"What Bokuto?"
"You said it"
"Said what"
"You. love. me." Bokuto announced proudly

I nod softly at him confirming what I said as I'm tackled into a hug from Bokuto "I LOVE AKAASHI!" I hold my breath refusing to let another tear ruin this moment for me" Nothing will ruin this moment for me.

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