Panic

How?

Akaashi's pov:
I close the door behind me and instantly slump against the wall holding my head in my hands. This can't be happening not now, and not this bad why aren't my meds working!

Bokuto's pov:
I hear the door to Akaashi's classroom shut and there's just a tiny part of me that gets a bad feeling I put my hand up and ask to leave to which my teacher agrees, I mean I'm already failing my class so it's not like she's got much to lose. I gently close the door behind me so I don't bring attention to myself, I peak round the wall as there's a pillar that blocks my view to the other classroom. As I suspected it's Akaashi, I go to greet him with my usual HEY HEY HEY that is before I hear soft whimpers coming from him, I tilt my head in confusion before I hear him break out into full sobs. I decide not to interfere and instead watch from behind the wall, even though it breaks my heart seeing my Akaashi like this. He never tells me what's going on in his world and this might be my only way to find out. I put on my brave face and continue to watch. "You're so useless Akaashi it's just a test but you're going to fail because you're a failure" My heart smashes into 1000 pieces hearing him talk about himself like that, I see him cup his mouth tightly and scream, I understand what's going on now it's what he does when he has a panic attack. His explanation was "If I scream the shitty thoughts in my head can't speak over my screaming" I remember the day he told me that because he said it with the biggest smile. How could he ever think about himself like that "AK" I whack my hand over my mouth and dip behind the wall. Shit I really hope he didn't hear me.