Siyamu's pov:
My package just got delivered. I take the package and thank the driver before going back into the house. Perfect timing,he's still out. Plus Aus'Lolo and Snothando went to the shop nearby. It's been a week since that vomiting incident. I still think it's the alcohol. So yesterday after a steamy,hot session he asked me if I was on contraceptives and I said yes,lying to him,just to see his reaction because we haven't been using protection. He said he doesn't want a baby anytime soon, Snothando is enough. That hit home because I've been forgetting to go to the doctor to get my 3 month injection.
I unwrap the box, revealing one pregnancy test inside. I throw the box away and run upstairs to the bathroom in his room. I close the door and urinate in the cup I was given. I do as the instructions said,puting the end of the stick in the urine for a few seconds before taking it out. Now I have to wait for 5 minutes. I dispose of the urine and the cup. I call Buhle while waiting
"Best we've been talking for 7 minutes,you can look now" she says and time really went by because we both talk a lot so we've wasted time. I turn around and take the stick, holding it up
"It only has one line so I'll wait for the second line because I can't not be pregnant after all those rounds these past three months" I say making her laugh
"You're not pregnant, aren't you relieved?"
" I mean I am but it's a slap on the face" I hear Spho cry in the background
"Best I've got to go,your baby has woken up. Finally!"
"Kiss her for me" I say wishing I was there to hold her
"I will,bye. I love you. I know you love me too" she hangs up on me, great.
"Hey baby" he says behind me,keep in mind I'm still holding the test in my hands. I turn around with my hands behind my back. He's taking his tie off,he looks so yummy right now but I've got to go get my injection first. He comes towards me, snaking his hands on my waist,pulling me closer. I manage to hang my hands on his shoulders without him seeing this pregnancy stick. He kisses me and I kiss him back,soft and smooth
"I missed you" I laugh. He saw me just this morning. He actually left at 11am and it's 3pm now.
"You always miss me,now let me go and make you something to eat" he lets me go. He must be hungry. He turns around and the stick accidentally drops,he turns back to me again. I push the stick under the carpet with my foot.
"What was that?" he asks looking on the floor,by my feet and back up at me
"It was nothing,get dressed in something comfortable" I say attempting to walk away but he pulls me by my waist,making me look at him
"You better not be hiding anything from me baby.... because,I will find out" he whispers, instead of making me shiver,he makes me horny. I steal a peck and run away from him,going downstairs. I find Aus'Lolo with Snothando. Thando is making the kid miss school just because he said he missed her. The dramatics of this man
"Hey mom" she utters before carrying on eating her sandwich
"Hi baby" I say kissing her forehead.
"Sawbona ma" I say to Aus'Lolo and she smiles
"Sawbona ngane yami,yazi uyakujabulisa lomfana wakwa Sangweni(greetings my child,you know that Sangweni boy makes you happy)" she says and I giggle "buka nje manje umithi(just look at you now,you're pregnant)" that makes me laugh.
"Yini le oyihleka kangaka mina ngingahleki?(what are you laughing at so much while I'm not laughing?)" he asks smiling
"It's nothing,ahy" I say wiping the tears that managed to leave my eyes.
•••
It's been another week since that pregnancy test thingy. I'm back home in Newcastle,at my dad's again. I'm wearing a body hugging red dress. I have to go back to gym,I have a potbelly now. A round one at that,ahy ngeke. I can't let myself go like that.
"Sbusiso please, don't forget the extra sauce" I shout before he gives me a thumbs up. My favourite these days,wings with extra chilli sauce
"Ahy ngeke she's pregnant,look at her stomach" aunt Thandi says smiling and I laugh,looking down at my belly.
"Do you know who the father is?" aunt Nomvula asks probably worried
"Guys if I was pregnant I would know" I reassure them. This honestly scares me,they are the second to say I'm pregnant and they are elders. They know best. What if I'm really pregnant? Oh my gosh,I'm not ready to be a mom. What if I lose the baby again?what if Thando doesn't want the child? what if I become a bad mom?
"Follow me" Aunt Thandi says. Aunt Nomvula follows behind us. They close the door of the bedroom we're in and tell me to take off my dress and my bra. Damn my boobs are heavy man. Aunt Thandi squeezes one of my breasts and a yellowish substance makes its way out. I say substance because I'm debating with myself whether it's a liquid or solid. They clap their hands excitedly, smiling
"You're pregnant ngane ka bhuti" Aunt Nomvula says
"Please can we keep this between us for now,I'll tell everyone else when I'm ready" I state,not believing this. I'm not pregnant
"Okay mntanami but we have to go to the boy's family to tell them about this. It's tradition and we have to go there fast because you're starting to show." -aunt Thandi
"That's okay aunty"
"Ah I can't believe this" Aunt Thandi gushes over my belly. I giggle noticing the long line going across my belly,passing my belly button. I call Thando after they leave the room
"Sthandwa sami" he says softly "Ouch,fuck don't touch me like that man!"
"What's wrong dude?why are you shouting?and who's touching you?" he chuckles
"It's the family doctor. Don't panick okay,but I got shot. It's not bad though,just on my thigh area" he justifies and my worries get worse
"You're hurt?who hurt you sthandwa sami?" I find myself crying because I'm so worried
"Lalela muntu wami,ungakhali ngibe ngingekho ukuzokusula izinyembezi (listen my person,don't cry whilst I'm not there to wipe your tears)"
"Just promise me you'll be okay"
"I promise baby,I'll be okay so I can make your legs numb" I burst out in a fit of laughter
"Sies Thandolwethu sies,you're disgusting" I say wiping my tears
"I wanted to hear your laugh,sengizoba right manje thambo lami"
"About that...is your mom available tomorrow?" I ask,anxiety running all through my veins
"Yeah probably,we were planning on having a family dinner" he says
"Uhm okay, please tell her to expect visiters"
"What is that about?" he asks, curious huh
"I'm not telling you,bye. I love you"
"Nami ngyakuthanda"
"Don't look at other girls there" I say and he laughs
"As if I would,you would kill them just for looking at me" we say our goodbyes once more before ending the call. I look down at my belly and rub on it. Could I really be pregnant?how will Thando react to all of this because I'm 110% sure that this child is his!no I can't be pregnant,the test came back negative. Shit,shit I forgot to take it out under the carpet when I left. If he found it he would tell me right?what if Aus'Lolo found it?this is so confusing.
