Siyamu's pov:
"Ayibo you look so handsome fana fana ka mamakhe" I kiss a grumpy Ndabe all over his face. He just woke up from his nap,he didn't want to sleep at night. Atleast the sleepless nights are getting lesser and lesser as he grows. 6 months of no proper sleep isn't a joke.
"Let's go bathe you,you smell sour boy boy" I say standing up with him in my arms. I check if it is still wet in our rooms but luckily it has dried out. I was helping Sandiswa clean while Ndabe's cot was in the lounge,where he was sleeping. I switch on the kettle in the kitchen while he pulls on my t-shirt to put in his mouth. My god,this child. I put him in his cot and proceed to walk out to grab all the necessities to bathe him. He starts crying,it's as if someone pinched him.
"Ahy ngeke boy,uyatetema(you're being a cry baby)" I huff before walking back into the lounge. I take him and put him on my back,I grab the nearest towel and fasten it,with him on my back. He eventually stops crying. Sandiswa pops her head through the passage
"Everything okay?" she asks and I nod
"Uphethwe ukuphapha nje lo(he's just being forward)" I say and she laughs because Ndabe does this everytime I leave the room. I take his bathing dish and place it on my bed. We usually sleep together at night,the cot is just for midday purposes,it also helps because it's moveable. I pour a drop of the muthi my mom got for him to not attract bad spirits apparently and pour a dash of Dettol. I really prefer him to be protected because Thando has a really dark aura. I might not mind but I can't expose my son to the kind of things he does. I fetch the kettle and our the boiling water in his little tub,I dash the boiling water with cold water so it can be warm. When it's warm enough I take out the clothes he's going to wear,his nappy and his baby lotions.
I untie the towel carefully and grab Ndabe. He lays his head on my shoulder when he's facing me. What?he's sleeping again? "Must be nice to be you ha?" I ask myself because he is already drooling all over my shoulder. I walk back to the lounge to put him in his cot but he cries with his arms held out to me. I take him once again and his little hand grabs onto my t-shirt tightly. I melt at the sight,he's going to be such a mama's boy. I decide to just sit down and be busy with my phone.
'please don't forget that we're coming over today. I know you're very forgetful since Ndabe was born' Sangweni wami at 11:22
'I haven't forgotten. I don't know when I'll be back from my commitments but hopefully by 4pm I'll be done' sent at 11:23
'alright baby. Kiss my boy for me,tell him I'll see him later' received at 11:25
'alright. I love you' sent at 11:25
'I love you more. Be safe sthandwa sami' received at 11:26. I put my phone down and attempt to put him in his cot, luckily for me he agrees. He heaves a big sigh as he breathes out. I take pictures and videos of him sleeping. He looks so cute. My baby took my caramel skin,my small nose and my perfectly shaped lips. He has his father's big ears and his father's sexy eyes. He also took his father's hairiness because he even has hair from his back to his buttocks. I send the pictures to Thando and Ndabe's two grandmother's. I notify Sandiswa that I left Ndabe in the lounge and put the baby monitor on. I pump milk from my boobs into Ndabe's bottles and put it in the fridge when I'm done. I take a bath and wear a black body hugging over the knee strapless dress with black and white Nike dunks. I notify Sandiswa that I'm going now and kiss Ndabe's forehead,then his slightly opened lips. He might be very naughty but I love him to the ends of the world
"I was going to come in and kiss Ndabe but we're already late" Sandile says starting the car. I laugh at his dramatic ass,things haven't been the same but what can I say,I'm a nobody right? It's so hot,I'm sure Jesus is frying us for our sins. We arrive in Umhlanga at a restaurant called La Divine. We walk in and spot Phori at the far end,on his laptop. He is with another guy that I don't quite know. We walk over to him and he stands up to greet us.
"Bab'Maphorisa" I say giving him a hug. He laughs because that's what I call him. So a quick rewind,3 months ago I posted a video on my story singing to Ndabe so he could fall asleep,which didn't work but atleast big South African artists reached out to your girl with an immaculate voice. So now I'll be releasing my first single in a months time. He introduces the guy as his P.A. He wasn't really welcoming but I don't give a damn,Maphorisa has already signed me to his record label. The meeting takes about 3 hours with 4 different types of drinks,no alcohol for me because I'm still breastfeeding. We leave for the mall after that, Khadijah has just opened her first salon in South Africa so I have to make an appearance to attract people. You know how people think. We got to the salon,with the help of my bodyguards and Sandile left to go somewhere. Khadijah welcomes me and one of the hairstylists do my hair. Two hours later of this girl talking her head off we're finished. She really talks too much but atleast she's welcoming and her work is divine. My black butterfly locs look damn hot on me. I pay with a tip of R500 and call Sandile to come fetch me. He arrives after five minutes and I say my goodbyes to Khadijah after lots of pictures,I also promise her to invite her over one of these days to see my little naughty angel.
Sandile takes me home and I arrive around 5pm. I open the door and I hear some baby shouts,Ndabe is definitely awake. A great aroma greets me at the door. I walk in further and find Snothando carrying Ndabe who is hitting her with a toy car on the face. She is just smiling at him. God,why isn't Ndabe as sweet as his sister?
"Hello baby" I say and Snothando's head jots up. Her eyes meet mine and she stands up,gives Ndabe to Sandiswa and runs over to hug me. I hug her back
"Hello mom,come,daddy said he wants to talk to you" she says pulling my hand towards the kitchen. When I walk in Thando is busy with the pots,in my apron which doesn't fit his masculine self but he's wearing it anyways because he wants to piss me off. I hug him from the back,his shoulders slouch at my touch. He turns around and kisses my nose
"Sthandwa sami. You look so beautiful" he says staring at my face
"Uright?" I ask blushing and he nods. He switches off the stove as I let him go "it smells nice in here, Snothando said you wanted to talk to me?" he nods,takes off the apron and leads me to my bedroom. He has his phone in his hand
"I was vlogging but let me just switch it off because I want to talk to you about something really important" he says and I sit down. I'm really tired. He paces up and down
"So..?" I ask impatiently. He stops to look at me
"Siyamthanda you know I love you, right?" he asks. There we go,once he calls me by my full name it's bad. I nod "these past couple of months things haven't been the same for me. Ever since Ndabe was born you've been so busy with him and work,that you don't have time for me anymore. I've tried talking to you about this but you just brushed me off. I love you but I am can't do this anymore. You're draining me emotionally" he looks at me with a facial expression that tells me he is conflicted
"So you're breaking up with me?" I ask but it came out more as a whisper. My heart clenches as I say that. He can't do that
"I just want to be happy and to do that, you'll have to let me go" I stare at my fingers. What's wrong with me? thinking a girl like me deserves a happily ever after? "Look at me"he says and I do "it's not your fault. You're perfect and everything but you're just not my type of perfect. There's actually this girl I met two months ago and she's so funny" my chest tightens as I hold back the tears. Maybe it's the baby fat I still have. I only went back to gym two months back but we haven't been intimate since I was pregnant. I never really thought it bothered him,I just thought that when we're both ready we'll dive right into it"she's tall and she makes me smile even when I don't want to. She's even met Snothando but I didn't want to confuse her so she knows her as my friend. I'm falling for her hard and fast" I give him a faint smile
"I'm happy for you,don't let me hold you back from finding someone that's suited for you. Just promise me that you won't stop being an amazing dad to our kids. Thank you for all the good memories" my voice breaks as I choke on my own tears. He nods while pulling me into a hug. I wrap my arms around his waist,inhaling his scent and crying some more. After 3 whole years?he leaves me for another girl? Fuck,this hurts. Why do I have to go through all of this?why can't I just be happy for once?
