Siyamu's pov:
It's been a beautiful 8 months of being married to the love of my life,my best friend. We never really went on our honeymoon because we wanted to spend time with our kids. A lot was done before the white wedding and we were also busy with work. We just decided to take them to Marassi in Egypt for the December holidays. Everyone enjoyed their time there
You know my birthday is in November right?the month before we went to Egypt,Thando bought me a pregnancy test as a present. He was suspecting that I was pregnant because of how much I ate apparently. It came out negative,now that I think of it,I haven't been taking my shots since we've gotten married but still there's nothing. Maybe,I won't ever fall pregnant again,I touch my visible scar. I'm such a failure. The eyebags under my eyes are evidence of my exhaustion. I came back at 3am from a gig and now it's 6:37 am. I always help Sandiswa with Ndabe and making lunch in the morning. Since Aus'Lolo died due to illness,she's all we have.
I wear my gown and head downstairs. I'm so worried about Thando. Yesterday was his grandmother's birthday. He woke up,left a sticky note saying he'll be back later but he hasn't called or texted till now. I've called his brothers and Thapelo but none of them know where he is,partly why Bayanda is here. He's never not slept at home without letting me know. We finally moved into the house that was being built. It's a two storey house.
"Ndabe hurry up,you're going to be late" I say to Ndabe who is taking his own sweet time with finishing his breakfast
"Almost done mommy" he says with a mouthful and I give him a disapproving look. He knows not to speak with a full mouth
"Mom please sign my homework for me" Snothando asks. Bayanda appears in the kitchen rubbing his eyes
"Morning everyone" he says yawning
"Hey uncle" these two reply
"You slept good?" I asked him taking Snothando's book, signing it where necessary
"How can I when we can't find this man?" he whispers back and I sigh. I give Snothando her book back after signing it.
"I just don't understand why he-" I'm cut off by mumbling
"No Thapelo,leave me alone,I can walk by myself" Thando stumbles into the kitchen being pushed by Thapelo. The kids turn their attention to him
"Dad" Ndabe voices out. Thando stumbles towards Ndabe and pulls him in for a hug
"Boy boy" he says rubbing his back. Ndabe just looks confused by this awkward gesture
"Found him passed out outside some bar in his car. Apparently he told the guards to not follow him" Thapelo says. Thando looks up to look at me. He stumbles his way to me. The smell of whiskey mixed with nicotine lingers in his breath.
"You smoke now?" the words come out as a whisper
"Not that it matters but yes,I do" he says in my face,making sure I smell the horrible mixture of these two things. He knows how much I hate the smell of nicotine
"Please go take a bath" I beg him,taking a step back
"Stop being such a self-centred bitch!" he shouts throwing his hands in the air
"Thando!" Bayanda reprimands
"Sandiswa please take Ndabe with you upstairs,Snothando go get ready for school" I say turning my back from him
"You're out of hand" Thapelo tells him
"What?it's always her way right?it's always about her" he shouts grabbing my arm roughly. He pulls me towards him by my wrist. I crash into his hard chest
