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This was hard.

Realizing.

Coming to terms with it.

Things were bad enough when Seonghwa realized he wasn't straight, but this – this was a whole other ball park of pain, suffering, and eventual heartbreak.

Why did he have to like Hongjoong?

Why not anyone else?

Even another idol would be different.

At least that wouldn't threaten the entire dynamic of their group, the relationships they had with each other, the way that people saw them as a whole.

It would change for Seonghwa if it ever came out, but maybe he could get away with it just destroying him.

Not them.

Seonghwa was so scared of destroying them.

Sitting in the meeting room with the other members, all tired and groggy from it being too early in the morning for something like this, Seonghwa found he wasn't actually listening to a single thing their manager was saying.

Something about their upcoming Japan tour, which was in less than two weeks now, something else about an eventual world tour, something about taking care of their health and an interview?

Maybe?

He'd have to ask San for a recap later.

Because all he could think about right now was Hongjoong.

Said member sat at the opposite end of the table, arms crossed and mouth hanging open as he "listened."

The way he kept blinking, eyes falling closed for a bit too long before pulling open as he nodded made Seonghwa giggle behind his hand, biting at his lip as the older member continued to fall asleep in front of him.

Too early for this.

Like Seonghwa said.

And Seonghwa was smitten for the way Hongjoong's head lolled forward before he jerked up, banging his knee on the table, drawing every eye to him as he tried to play it off, looking at them with an expression that simply said, what.

Seonghwa laughed then.

Hongjoong turned to him, his own embarrassed smile on his face as he ducked his head.

He'd been caught staring and he knew it.

Seonghwa was kinda in love with that smile.

And the entire person behind it.

Seonghwa sighed and forced his gaze to his hands.

In other words, Seonghwa was royally screwed.

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