Livin' With The Stray Kids

Chapter 28 [Part I]

"Hyung, I'm coming in and I'm sorry but I wanted to—" Jisung's eyes darted across the room and the words were snatched from his tongue when he say the scene infront of him.

Minho's hands on the girl's back, the girl kissing Minho and him kissing her back as Jisung stood and watched dumbfoundedly.

"Hyu-ng?" He managed to stuttered out at the duo.

Jisung felt a thorn in his heart, right at that moment, he felt so many emotions together, betrayal, jealousy, broken. But he knew, he had no right to feel any of that, because Minho didn't choose him. He had told him already that he was straight and that the kiss meant nothing. But still, Jisung felt like his world collided the moment he saw this.

He sucked in a deep breath as he saw Minho push the girl off his lap, his hair falling on all sides and at this moment too, he found him beautiful. And he hated Minho. He depised him so much. The girl stared at Jisung, her lipstick smudged, her hair messed.

Lee Minho. This name made him feel butterflies but it also made him feel broken.

He let out a dark chuckle, before turning to Ji Yung and saying, "Let's go, Noona. I think we entered at the wrong moment. Let them have fun, shall we?"

And before she could say anything else, Han was already dragging her away from Minho's room.

Minho who was frozen all this time tried to call Jisung out.

And obviously, his calls went unheard by the younger.

.
.
.
.
.

"Sungie, please talk to me." Ji Yung looked at him, worried.

"Noona, plea-please, I'm fine." He said, with a small smile on his face, was he though? He felt empty, betrayed. Those two emotions hit him so hard, a millions of thoughts were flashing through his head. He didn't want to cry infront of Ji Yung. He wanted to be not pathetic for this once. He didn't want to be the guy who cries over his first love because he wasn't the one chosen.

He chose her over me. Is it because I'm clingy? Is it because she's prettier? Is it because I'm ugly?

"Jisung-ah. I know you're struggling inside." Ji Yung said in a soft voice, as she took his hand in hers, gripping it really securely. "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to. But Jisung-ah, I want to let you know that you don't have to endure it all alone." She rested his head on her shoulders. "I'll close my eyes now. I won't open it until you tell me to." She closed her eyes.

Ji Yung completely understood Jisung. He just wanted to be strong, he didn't want to look vunerable right now, but she also knew if he didn't let it out now, he'd keep it in his heart till he's alone. She didn't want him to endure anything alone, so she genuinely closed her eyes, waiting for the other.

Soon, the room echoed with soft choked sobs, "I hh-ate Minho hyung."

Minho. Jisung had been in love with Minho since the trainee years, but he was sure he saw something for him in Minho's eyes. He wondered if it was all a lie from the beginning. They way he hugged him, they way he smiled at him, the way he talked to him, called his name, maybe his expressions were a lie from the beginning or maybe it was Jisung all along. Maybe he misread the things.

Maybe laughing together, sharing those memories, with the same look of 'forever' in their eyes was a lie all along.

"Noona, I want to go back.....to Malaysia."