sunflowers and roses

001. when i think of you

i tell stories about our love but keep the details to myself,

i feel like those precious moments are for me, for us,

for my thoughts to bathe in,

i will always know love when i think of you.

i know you have been brutally broken, your trust shattered,

yet you have the courage to be gentle to others,

and that honestly deserves love deeper than the ocean itself,

and i hope i drown you in it.

i wouldn't call myself a poet, or an author, or anything,

but when i look at you, i want to write,

i want to write everything,

i never want to forget.

from the moments of waking up to you resting beside me,

your quiet breaths and eyes closed, your skin looked like porcelain,

(i don't think i'd have ever slept that well before)

to the moments of every goodbye i've had to give you,

longing hugs, and soft kisses are the worst,

i'm sorry for all the things i've left unsaid.

i remember the first time you left, 

i don't think the realization hit me until after you drove away,

that the hurricane at the back of my throat transformed into sobs,

i felt like a shipwreck.

i missed you when you were gone,

i miss you when you were in my arms,

i miss you few and far between,

no amount of time in the world would be enough to spend with you.

- when i think of you