sunflowers and roses

000. above all else, i love you

just some things you do, things i appreciate, and things i love about you

your voice / you're always honest / our friendship before anything happened / your acceptance of my worst / being able to handle a no / you're messy / checking in on me, without any reason / giving me sunflowers / or any flowers, really / in games, too / teaching me things without making me feel dumb for not already knowing / being able to be vulnerable with me / making me laugh / replying fast / being so unconditional with your love for me / how you know when i'm not okay / you like simple things / your loyalty / how you take care of me and fluffy before yourself / your voice when you talk to your grandfather / putting your head in my lap / eye contact with you / the way your eyes look in the dark, the light / how they crease when you smile / your soft spot for fluffy and cats and animals / how you hugged me for the very first time / actually, all your hugs, especially from behind me / your friendship with your brother / sunsets with you / holding my hand whenever it was possible / seeing me as imperfectly perfect / your eyes / respecting my boundaries / understanding that i can feel different emotions about the same situation / how you stay up with me when i'm upset to talk to me / how you keep calling even when i'm mad / how you stayed up with me to eat before i fasted / your fingers through my hair / your lips / how you love without expecting anything back / your soft care for fluffy / say my nickname lovingly / and when you do use my name, it's like a promise / your arms around me / your attentiveness to me / laughing at my jokes, even when they're bad and no one else does / your wit / how you feel like home / your gentle, kind, open heart / your laugh / how you winked at me across the room when you were playing pool / you make me feel safe / your resilience / not second guessing if you want me / because you communicate / willing to understand and talk to me through things / not just how you listen but give me your opinion / how you always stay, after everything / how you're gentle with me even when you're tired / the way your voice sounded when you were crying in my arms and told me you love me / appreciating me / your integrity / your willingness to apologize / and fix / and be better for me and for you / your lips / making sure you were emotionally available before letting me in / watching shows, or movies with me / your skin / spending time with me / playing video games with me / your taste in jewelry / giving me books / you've read flowers for algernon / your authenticity / you're hot and sexy / when you tell me you love me / you remind me to drink water / your eyebrows / you are my best friend / you prioritize me / making sure my feelings are validated / your respect to mickey, dakota, allen, and tristan (and all of your friends) / you're never cruel with anyone / talking about our future together / your trust in me / you're so selfless / and forgiving / you weren't given the best in your childhood, yet you're so kind to everyone now / you're brave / the way your hair feels, and looks (all the time) / when you call me ma / i see you in my dreams / the way i miss you / how you smile when i talk about something that made me smile / how you squeeze my hand sometimes / you're okay with silence / your want to help people / it's not about money / how you never spoil yourself / but spoil me / remembering the small details about everything i share with you / 3 kisses always /  your kindness to waiters/waitress' / your compliments / how you ordered rice without meat for me / your treatment to workers with respect / making me feel comfortable / making me feel seen / through oceans of people / how you just want me to be happy / your giggles / how you breathe / you don't let me reduce myself to nothing / your mind / your fingers / physical touch as a love language / learning my love languages / tracing your fingers on my face, my hands, my thighs, my the sides of my face / touching my skin like i'm fragile / like i'm everything valuable in this world / like i'm your world / like i'm everything

- above all else, i love you.