ennui | junshua

three

it has been a few weeks since the two boys has star gazed through call. junhui to this day won't stop recalling the moment he had with his boyfriend. he was hoping to do it again, but this time with his boyfriend.

it was like every other day. junhui was staring at his laptop, sighing and typing god knows what, it was clear on his face that he was tired, he wanted to close his laptop and just leave his office.

the boy was anxiously tapping his fingers on the table. he could hear the clock ticking, the other people typing on their personal laptop. he started to sweat and shiver at the same time. he felt like a demon was stretching his head. the boy felt a lump on his throat, feeling all the anxiety and stress there.

his phone started ringing, he turns it on and answers the call. he bites his lower lip and sighs, putting the phone close to his ear.

"jun! are you free after work later? can we have dinn—"

"shua, hi, yes uhm" he coughs out, "i can't.. boss told me to stay"

a disapointed sigh came out from joshuas mouth, the same reason had been happening a lot recently, which made him overthink. he missed the younger, he missed how he would suddenly surprise him out of no where.

but it seemed like there was nothing anymore, jun was always busy, he didn't even buy the time for him and his boyfriend.

it's been happening, their last date was two weeks ago. the boy wanted to spend some time with his boyfriend, he wanted to hug him, cook him food, feed him and give him nightly messages.

"i swear, shua" jun speaks, "i'll make it up to you, i promise" he rubs his face with his left hand, trying his very best to not burst into tears.

that's what you said last week.. shua thought. but he understood the situation of the younger, he knew the boys boss was a pain in the ass. he knew this job was important to junhui. it was the youngers dream job, though the american could see the pressure the chinese was going through.

he knew if he brought it up, it'd lead to something bad.

.
time passes by, the two hasn't talked to each other in awhile. joshua would always send good night messages to the other, reply or not, he still did. he puts his phone down and covers his face with both hands, sighing as he drinks a cup of water.

"you good shua?" his close friend, choi seungcheol asked right away as soon as he saw the american looking stressed. the jet black hair boy smiled and shook his head, "i'm fine," he says, "he just hasn't been texting me back"

the older opens a bottle of soju as he pours it into the cup, along with some yakult, he sits down beside the younger, softly clicking his drink with the other as he takes a sip of it. "he's probably busy."

the younger has his hands covering his face, he didn't want to even start anymore. he didn't want to deal with anything anymore.

he misses junhui, he misses him so much, he misses the hugs, the kisses, the smiles, the warmth and the love.

the love jun would shower him with.

maybe i'm being too much of a clingy boyfriend.. joshua thought, thinking he should just accept the fact that jun had no time for him, junhui will obviously find the time right?

right?

as if on cue, his phone buzzed, he quickly got it as he checked who messaged him.

prince junnie
shua..
um
dinner date this saturday?
i'm sorry if i was a bit harsh yesterday

joshua smiled brightly, eagerly texting back.

shua my love
ö okay!!
but where and what time?

and junhui went offline again, making joshuas smile slowly fade away. but his heart was still dancing with excitment.

"well that was a quick mood swing" seungcheol looked at the happy boy, joshua looks back at him, "this weekend"

seungcheol nods and pats him on his back. "just be careful shua," he warns him, "it might end up the way you don't want it"

the younger knocks on the wooden table, wanting to get the negativity away from him.

"it will go well" he repeated to himself.

but will it really go well?

// a/n
you guys love me
so much that i can
hurt you all with my
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eelings 🥺 /j JFKDHF
ily all <3