Love of a Tree Hugger

Chapter 19

Blaze POV

Why did she do this to me? I want to kiss him so bad but what if he doesn't want me to kiss him?

To hell with it. I take a huge swig of vodka. And walk over to Eric.

He has a weird look in his eyes. I have seen this look before but I still don't know what it means.

I lower myself so I am straddling his lap. Once I start kissing him I am going to count to twenty and if he doesn't kiss back I am just going to stop.

He looks shocked as I lean in and grab the back of his head. I pull his lips into mine and I can't believe how soft they are. All of sudden I feel this warmth from the core of my being. I have my eyes closed but I could swear I was seeing fireworks. I hadn't even gotten to 2 and he is already kissing me back. Our lips move in perfect harmony together. It feels like our lips were meant to be together. I feel him bite on my lower lip wanting permission to explore my mouth with his tongue. As I open my mouth I feel his tongue slide into my mouth and he moans into my mouth. Right now it feels like it's just me and him in the world. Nothing and nobody else matters but me and him. I feel the urge to pull away to catch my breath but I don't want to but my body won't allow me to stay. As I pull away and try to catch my breath without even realizing I am saying it one single word leaves my lips "fireworks." my knees are so weak I just sit their staring Eric in the eyes.

"Damn that was 4 minutes and 29 seconds. I didn't think you guys were going to stop. That was hot!" Paul exclaims.

Fuck! I forgot they were even here. As I look into eric's eyes I really wish we were alone.

As I slowly get up off of Eric I can see his eyes keep looking at my lips. Would it be too much to hope I got dared to kiss him again?

When I get back to the spot beside four he roughly grabs my hand and pulls me down to him. He has me half on his lap half off. He has his arms wrapped around me possively. I don't know what his problem is but I don't like it. Four has always been nice but he has never been overly nice. He has been friendly but not a friend. So I really don't know where this is all coming from. I know he hates Eric but shit does he have to be an ass to me because of it.

"Alright your turn blaze. Do your damage." Shauna words bring me back to reality.

"Paul. Dauntless or candor?"

"Dauntless I am no pansycake."

"I dare you to lick Carter's belly button."

Carter pulls up her shirt laughing. She starts laughing harder as she feels his tongue in her belly button. They are both beet red when he pulls away and sits back down beside her.

"Paul do your damage."

I see Carter lean over and whisper in his ear. This is not going to be good.

"Blaze. Dauntless or candor?"

What the fuck! Is no one else playing? Why do they keep picking on me?

"Dauntless. And nobody better pick me again after this."

"Show us your tattoo."

Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Carter has been on me since I got it to tell her what it was.

"No" I really hope they don't push it.

"Why not?" Carter whines.

"Because it's not important."

"It has to be something important to you to have it as your first tattoo." four is not helping this situation.

I take the vodka bottle and swig as much as I possibly can before it burns to much to put anymore in my mouth.

"I think its time for me to head back to the dorms. Thanks for the fun night you guys."

As I go to stand up four grabs my wrist and pulls me back down on to his lap.

"Carter I will hold her down while you take a peak."

"Four stop it. Please don't. Carter I will never forgive you." Why the hell did I have that tattoo done? I wanted it to remind me to be brave and to not give up. I thought it would give me strength but here I lie across four's lap. Tears running down my face and feeling the weakest I have ever felt. I will never be able to face Eric again.

I feel Carter pull the bandage away from my fresh tattoo.

"So Carter what is it?" four is being inpatient.

Carter runs her hand across it. "I don't see what the big deal is it's just some random quote."

"Well what's the quote?" I guess curiosity has gotten the best of zeke too.

"It's just says" I am praying for the earth to swallow me whole right now. Or better yet Carter to lose her voice. "A brave man never surrenders."

Four violently tosses me off his lap while everybody else looks confused about what the big deal is. I look over at Eric and he has the biggest grin on his face. Only four, Eric and I know who said that quote.

I can't take anymore even though we are outside I feel like I am being smothered.

As the tears run down my face I make a run for the door back inside. I don't know where I am going or what I am doing I am too drunk to think about it. All I know is I have to run.