Brooke's P.O.V
I almost kissed Dean Spencer
That phrase was going on and on inside my head like a carousel. I couldn't stop thinking about the way he looked at me. Those dark hazel eyez profudly deepened into mine. Hunger, and passion in his eyes. Sometimes I think I dreamt that moment, it felt... unreal.
I wish I would have actually leaned in and kissed him. And I really hoped he wanted that too.
I mean, probably I'm overthinking. Is it normal to be obsessed with somebody? To have butterflies in my stomach every time he looks at me? To send shivers down my spine by just being meters away from me? to blush to his words, even if he's just being rude or sarcastic? No, it's not normal, not for me.
Right now I was laying in my bed, with my phone out, looking at my social media. I got into my instagram and did the thing I will most regret for the next few weeks. I checked Dean's page.
I got into his central home page and the first thing I noticed was that he had three posts, and a beautiful profile picture; of him looking out into the beautiful mountain views. I clicked on his first post, it was him and some other friends laughing at a bar. God, his smile was so intense and goregous.
I had spent a few more minutes contemplaiting at that photo when I noticed I was smiling, widely. But my smile immediately faded away when I scrolled down to the next picture.
It was Dean, kissing a girl, in the rain. It looked like central park. Dean was kissing a beautiful, perfect-curved body brown headed girl.
My heart instantaneously dropped down to the floor at the sight of this. I noticed my eyes started to sting.
Don't cry, just go ask him if this is true!
No, I won't. I can't. I don't want to. I'm afraid that he'll actually be in love with someone and I'm just standing right in the middle. I noticed a tear flowing down my face, carried after more and more tears.
-"Brooke? Hey what's wrong?" I heard Emily coming inside the cabin, closing the door after her. "Why are you crying? And why aren't you at the cafeteria, with all of us? Dean was asking for you." That last bit made me feel a little better but I still felt a deep bullet carved inside my heart, cutting deeper by the second.
-"It's nothing. I shouldn't even be crying about this"
Yes you should, you fell for a player.
-"Please, what's going on, Brooke?" She questioned, worry written all over her face.
-"Its... Dean. He has a gir-"
-"Girlfriend? yeah I know. Lucas told me he had a girlfriend. He said Dean and her were really happy together and..." Dissapointment flodded me. I couldn't hear what she was saying anymore. Maybe its because I didn't want to.
-"Emily, stop. Please." My eyes were now dry, I didn't feel any emotion, any damage. This exact moment reminded me of when I found out about Cole and Bella. I felt this sudden rage inside of me. I didn't want to see him, hear him, or talk to him anymore.
I was feeling things for Dean that should be ilegal. I am really confused right now of how I felt, but all I know is that I don't want to be broken again.
I then told Emily everything that has happened between me and Dean. All the tension, all the happiness, all my feelings...
-"Oh my god, Brooke, I am so so sorry! I didn't mean to!" I guess she's apologizing about talking so freely about Dean's girlfriend.
-"It's okay, I- I just need some fresh air" I stated, standing up and picking up my keys.
-"i'll go with you" She said, following next to me.
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Endless Summer | IN PROGRESS
Romance"Three months to have fun, 5 seconds to fall in love" My mum had always told me that quote. Of her memorable summer at a camp. And that is where she met my dad. She fell in love. She was happy. And I had never had a desire for love until now. My nam...
