I won't call,
But I care.
I won't text,
But I think of you everytime.
I won't meet you,
But I always love you.
Avni smiled sadly, as she saw Neil and Mitali going for party in Neil's car. They looked happy together. Neil had invited her too for joining them but how can she say a yes to him as her parents had told her to shun all the boys in her life. She was told not to make friends with boys and not to talk to any boy. But it was all for her own good right?....her parents didn't wanted her to be termed as characterless by the society. They wanted the best for her.
Avni tried to convince her restless heart but it wasn't going to listen her as it had already fallen for someone, for him who was his best friend forever. Okay only best friend not forever....she chuckled sadly not knowing what to do of her growing feelings. She knew she can't share it with anyone but she also knew that she's not able to keep it to herself only. As much she was trying to avoid the more it was growing intense. Though this feeling was very beautiful but was also wasteful. Wasteful? Cause she knew her feelings were not going to be reciprocated. She knew that her love would always stay unrequited but still she was helpless in front of her heart who wasn't ready to listen her. Her heart wasn't aware of Society's rules for girls. Her heart didn't knew love is considered as sin by society.
The first time you fall in love,
It changes you forever and no matter how hard you try that feeling just never go.
Same was in her case.
She wiped her lone tear which escaped her eye when she was thinking about him. She thinks he might be enjoying in the party. How badly she wanted to be with him. For once in life she wanted to see how a party is celebrated. Maybe she couldn't get his love but still she wanted some memories with him to spend her entire life. But she wasn't fortunate enough to even have some memories with him. All these thoughts roaming in her mind weren't going to do anything except making her more vulnerable so she went on her bed to have peaceful sleep but peace isn't written in her fate maybe.
To burn with desire and still keep quiet about it, is the greatest punishment one can bring for own.
Cause she sleeps to forget him but he visits her dreams. Now what's her fault in it?
When I am alone with myself, you are with me.
Love happened in very short period of time then why's it taking so long to forget?
But yes she loves him enough to let him go.....
She just stopped talking with her friends including Neil too. All thought she's being egoistic, rude not knowing the exact reason why she's being so conservative.
A girl behind, smiles with many,
But happy with nobody..
She smiles randomly sometimes,
Who knows!
She screams so badly..
A girl behind, locks her pain and cry all night..
A girl behind, says she don't care..
The world says she's rock-hearted who knows she's broken inside...
The walls she built around to keep sadness out was also keeping happiness out....
But she had no solutions to her problems rather than just suffering and keeping quiet.
She thinks who exactly she was before the society told her whom to be....
She took out her face from the pillow which was moist from her tears when she heard the soothing voice which was enough to calm her restless soul. She went towards the window and saw him. There Neil was standing with some friends and Mitali. They all were laughing and talking near the car. She wasn't able to hear them but probably they must be talking about the fun they had in party. A small smile was playing on Avni's lips as she was seeing them. Suddenly Neil said something to which everyone laughed and Mitali made an angry face. Avni frowned as she didn't knew what conversation was going on. She looked how cute Neil was looking while he was making a puppy face asking sorry from Mitali holding his ears. Somewhere her heart craved that she could also be there with them. Somewhere her heart pained at the fact that he was her everything but maybe she was nothing for him. Still looking at him from far and adoring him was giving her peace.
