𝐋𝐀𝐖 𝐎𝐅 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 | 𝐇𝐚𝐧 𝐉𝐨𝐨𝐧𝐡𝐰𝐢 (On-Hold)

𝒙𝒊: 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒂𝒍𝒎𝒐𝒔𝒕

I CANNOT sleep for the whole night that my eyes are hurting for too much exhaustion, I am wide awake even though I google everything I need to know to sleep peacefully without overthinking.

What Joonhwi had said lives freely on my mind. He just said he likes someone. I knew he did and I am not just hearing things.

I sarcastically laugh at my self. Why the hell does it felt like I am the drunk one among us when I hadn't take any sip from the beer that I bought.

"Should I just take a cold shower?" I question my self as I stare at my phone that is now showing the current time.

3:48 AM

"Or should I just drink the beers on the refrigerator?"

Licking my lower lip, I groan in frustration whilst messing my already messy hair. I shouldn't have thinking this one since we are currently more facing bigger problems.

"Yah, stop it! Huh." I warns my self pointing out my face with my right forefinger, "You should come to your senses and be mature." I continue my scolding only to be enterrupted by the newly awake person.

"Unnie..." My eyes widen when Yeseul's hoarse voice mutters, "aren't you going to sleep?"

Guiltily biting my lower lip, I nodded my head despite the fact that she can't see me since her head is still buried on her pillow.

Slowly laying down on my bed, I forcedly close my eyes and think about for tomorrow's happening. Wishing that no matter what happened to our friendship, I won't ruin it just because he felt something on the unknown person.

I will probably feel jealous and sad for that-my eyes widen from my thoughts that I immediately sat down while breathing heavily. Gulping my saliva down, I massage my temple.

The things that I over think makes me assume that I am now caughting feelings again on Joonhwi when I shouldn't supposed tom

Tired of being indenial, I whisperedly scream to my self.

"So what if I like him? I just need to keep it a secret so he wouldn't reject me again!" I raises my brows as I talk to my self, realizing what I just said. I softly cursed my self.

"Fvck-did I just admit it?" I almost cry in frustration before I lose my mind, I fastly grab my pillow and buried my head on it. "I shouldn't supposed. I can't. I am not allowed to."

I keep muttering unaudible sounds as I fake a sobs on it. I felt so pathetic. I feel like I am going crazy if I'd continue to think.

Han Joonhwi, this is all your fault and I will never forgive you for making me feel like this.

"Unnie!"

At the middle of my slumber, a hands shakes me up like crazy. I slowly open my eyes whilst grunting when I face to face a now agitated and upset Sol-a.

The girl had her hair everywhere, her eyes are swollen red and she is sweating heavily. Worried instantly flash on my eyes as I sit up from my bed, I softly touches the back of my neck as I felt it sting a little.

"What is it Sol-ya? Did something bad happen?"

Scratching my right fingers on my right brows, I stare at her with question as she only answer me with sobs. I got alarm after it. I instantlt place the right hand of mine on her back as I soothingly rub it with care.

"Gwanchanagoya Sol? Tell me what it is..."

Without looking-up to me, she replied after letting out another cry of pain.

"Professor Y-Yang," she stuttered, denial and hurt is written all over her face. "He... he,"

My heart hammered on my chest as I felt nervous on how my friend is acting. I shake the bad thoughts I am thinking as I pressed my two hand on her shoulder, trying to make her look directly at me.