Talking to the stars (5sos Fanfic)

Chapter Nineteen

Victoria's POV
I felt numb, but i heard everything said near me. Luke came in and cried next to me and that made my heart shatter into pieces. He said how he is sorry he couldn't protect me and how he feels like an idiot brother and he kept on saying blaming sentences to himself. Suddenly i heard the door open and someone sniffed, that person was crying i guess.

" Tori " Michael said his voice cracking, and by this my heart sank and i wanted to cry. I wanted hug him and tell him i am alright. " I'm sorry, so so so sorry Victoria. " He continued crying. " I should've killed him and I should've took care of you. I feel so horrible and you can't ever feel the feeling i am in now. I wish that i was in your place. In the pain you are in now and i know you can't hear me, but you have to know all this. I am an idiot person. I got angry on you and made you angry on me. i mean us. Luke, Ashton, Annabelle and Calum too. I know you felt guilty for being harsh at us, but you were right, You got upset from us and didn't have someone to talk to. That's why you didn't know what to do and just went to him. i'm sorry Victoria, i really am so sorry " He said his voice cracking again at the end of the sentence. I wanted to jump from this freaking bed and hug him, tell him i am okay and to tell him i am not sad from him any more, but i couldn't.

" Tori come back, before i die " And that was the last thing he said, before he left. Crying. I wanted to cry, i wanted to scream, but i couldn't. I wanted him to come back and stay by my side, but i couldn't......

~Two Days later~
Michael's POV
After the day i saw Victoria for the first time in this hospital bed, i fainted when i came out of her room.(A/N Michael fainted, because ... if you remember the nurse told him he has to stay a bit, so he dosen't faint ? ... Well he didn't listen to her ) I stayed for a day in the room next to hers. The second day which is today, i was released from that white, doctor like - smelling room. I was a wreck, the boys were a wreck and Annabelle was a wreck. Thanks god Calum being the good and caring one of us, he made the guys and Belle to go take showers and change and he stayed with me and Victoria, and when they came back he went, he changed and took his shower and got me clothes too.

I wanted to see her, but the doctor said we couldn't. I was sitting next to Luke on the chair infront of her room. Calum , Ashton and Belle sat on the ground, although there was a lot of space they could've sat on next to me and Luke.
" Luke.. Why can't we see her ? Why didn't she wake up ? "
" S-she .. I mean t-the doctor said if she dosen't wake up today, so she will be in a bad situation and they will have to surgery her Wrists. S-she cut a lot and she cut something inside her wrist that helps her body to ... I don't even remember what that man said. " Luke said and i felt so horrible. Ugh! I put my head back and leaned it on the wall behind me. I am sure i stayed like this for hours, because a doctor came out running looking for us.

" Victoria Hemming's family and friends are you ? " A doctor in his early 30 s asked in a weird english accent. We all in unison said ' yes '
He looked through papers and smiled to us.
" She is awake " He finally spoke. Luke looked at me with the same expression. He took me into a hug and i hugged him too. We made a little celebration and i actually smiled.
" So, i know you are happy, but she can't leave until tomorrow, after her morning check up "
" What's the morning check up? " Calum asked.
" Well... she will leave depending on that check up. It will determine weither she is fine and could go or not. It will be at 9:20 in the morning. " The doctor smiled to us and excused himself. We all nearly flied with happiness. She. Is. Fine. I can get to apologize and hug her again.

We all piled up in a line to see her. I wanted to see her the last, so i can take my time. hihihi. Selfish me. They all went inside and took like an hour or an hour and a half inside. Then, it was my turn.

Victoria's POV
I was back to life again. I can speak, eat, see and feel everything , except for my bandaged wrists. Luke, Calum, Ashton and Belle came by turn and saw me, except him. Michael.
I thought he would be the first one to come to me, but i was wrong. My thougths were cut by a smiling Michael standing intront of the door. He lost a lot of weight and on his arm was a small bandage. I opened my arms gesturing him for a hug. He quickly came and hugged me softly, as if, if he hugged me tight i would break in pieces. I hugged him tight and we stayed like this for a couple of minutes. He slowly moved and looked to me and smiled. " god! how i missed your face. " He said  and I giggled. " and your giggles too " He said and we both started laughing. We kept silent for a couple of minutes, enjoying the happiness that filled the room. " Michael " I suddenly spoke.
" yes " he answered.
" come next to me " I said shyly.
" but the doctors and your wri- " He starts saying, but i cut him off.
" please ? " i said andgave him the puppy eyes.
" fine, i can't resist your puppy eyes. " He gave up and slowly slept next to me. I made myself comfortable and made him sleep and I curled myself into a ball an slept of his chest my legs tangled with his. ( He took off his shoes btw )

" Sleep Tori. I'm going to be here to protect you, whatever  happens i will always be here. " He said and i closed my eyes.
I fell asleep in Michael Gordon Clifford's arms feeling safe and happy.