As you may or may not know, shifting does not mean that you have created a new reality. In easiest terms, you are simply moving your awareness to a reality that already existed. This would also mean that you, or at least a version of yourself, have already lived in that reality. Because of this, shifting can be very overwhelming the first time you do it. Not just the first time in general but your first time in any reality can be like this. That has definitely been the case for me when it comes to shifting. Every first has been something new and interesting. Especially in this reality.
When I personally first shifted to the MCU, it took quite a bit of time for me to adjust. There was a lot to take in. Although these people were not new to that reality's version of me, it was definitely new to me personally. The people, the sounds, the smells, the powers. It was all so much to take in. Not only were these things bombarding me but there was also the fact that I was smacked in the face by memories of times that "I" had experienced. The process of trying to understand each aspect of my life was something I definitely wasn't extremely prepared for. There was so much going on that I didn't quite understand at first. It took time and that was frustrating. Dealing with such a heavy amount of loss and grief was something that was more than difficult for me. Having to continuously risk my life for people that didn't appreciate it and having to learn to move past it. All of these things are aspects of shifting that I had to adjust to very quickly.
Alongside all of this, the experience of aging in another reality and returning to this reality to be reminded that I'm still the age that I am here is definitely a weird feeling. I am currently 21 in this reality but I have experienced the process of aging from 18 to around 34 while in my DR (I have been shifting for about 5 years now). Being that I have had 4 kids in my DR, my body is no longer the same as it is here. I still look like me of course but there are different aspects of my appearance that aren't exactly the same.
Another thing that I had to adjust to was the fact that my family isn't the same as it is here in this reality. The people that I spend each day with are not the same. This does honestly become hard to deal with someday because I tend to miss the little family that I have with James/Bucky. I miss the feeling of his hands, the sound of my kids' laughter, and the random questions that Amalia tends to ask.
The moral of this chapter is that once you begin shifting, adjusting to any reality is important. You'll have moments where you will feel like you're drawn more to one reality than another. You will have moments where you will feel like you need a breather. It's okay to be overwhelmed with the new experiences that are thrown at you in a new reality. It is a lot to take in and that's okay!
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Author's Note:
Hey, gaymergoobs! Please feel free to ask questions about my DR or shifting in general that you would like me to answer. Or let me know what type of experiences you'd like me to talk about. I will be creating a shifting 101 book up here as well that will have information about the subject. All of the information will be things that my therapist has taught me about shifting, the process of shifting, and anything that I have learned on my journey as well. I can't wait to share this information with you all. I will also be including some resources, such as books and online sources, that you can read through in order to further educate yourself on the topic if you'd like to do so. As for this book, I will try to update it weekly when possible so keep an eye out.
-Kaiden
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