Was she worth it ? | YUNGI

if only

Yunho pov :

" love you "
" I love you "
" I miss you "
" did you eat "
" bye baby "

" baby "

Those are the words my special someone says to his girlfriend, his love , his future wife , his special someone....

If only that special someone was me...

I wished it was me

I'm just his friend

Ha...

His "best friend"

Our story starts wayyy back in our 3rd year of middle school 8th grade . I was the quiet kid in class . You know the one who sits in the back of the class and just doesn't pay anyone any attention. Well...that was until he came into my life .

Song mingi

It was just an ordinary day where I sat in the back of the class dozing off ...until I felt a tap on my shoulder

Oh it's my teacher Mrs.Kang

" yunho will you be kind enough to show the new Student around after class ?"

New student ?
What ????
Who ????

" what new student ???" I say as I quickly snap my head to look at her in confusion

Her expression changes to one of shock
"Oh"
" uh...yunho our new student song mingi " she says as she points to the boy in front of the class

" oh " is all I can say before reality comes crashing down on me
I immediately grow embarrass by the fact that I completely blacked out everything going on around me and missed the new boy introduction
Now everyone is staring
Fuck

" O-OH OH SURE " I say embarrassing loud
Cough cough....
" haha ye- yeah sure" i look down
regretting being at school at all

Could life get any worse
......
> LATER........

Mrs. Kang is introducing me to the new boy

"Yunho this mingi .. song mingi " she says as she softly pushes me towards him

" and mingi this is yunho... Jeong yunho"

And that was the moment i first laid eyes on him . It felt like time had stopped literally all I could feel was that feeling in my stomach
It felt weird

Butterflies in my stomach is what some people would say

And there I was staring into his eyes
beautiful shaped dark brown eyes
And now I was staring at his mouth
Thick Plump pretty soft pink lips
And now I was starting at his entire face
And god was he beautiful

i didn't realize then but then and there was the moment i fell for song mingi
....

I showed him Around the school and we got along surprisingly well . Everyday he would come sit beside me in gym , history class , math class , social studies class , and even lunch I guess " well " would be a understatement we got along Perfectly . It would be once a week when he would come over to my house then it turned to 2 times a week to 3 times a week to 4 times a week and to Finally everyday .

He became my other half

We became inseparable

Well at least we were
Until he fell in Love
And it was not with me

I didn't realize I loved him
I didn't realize that me crying myself to sleep
Because he was kissing her
Because he loved Her
Because he chose her
Was me being in love with him

It turned from finally having a friend
To having a best friend
To developing a crush
To having a crush
To falling in love
And to my final realization
being in love

I was going to confess one day
I'm glad I didn't because
At least I saved myself an embarrassment

The day he told me he got a girlfriend
Was the day I buried my heart into a grave
Dug a hole so deep and buried it alive
If I was too confess my feelings not only would I be hurting mingi but also his girlfriend

She's nice
She's kind
She's pretty
She's sweet

She's everything I'm not

If mingi is happy then so be it

I rather be in pain than being the cause of mingi's pain

But even then what hurts worse

Is that

She wasn't his first kiss
She wasn't
A kiss isn't just the touch of two lips
A kiss has passion
A kiss has love
A kiss has feelings

Mingi

Song mingi

I was

I was his first Kiss....