Was she worth it ? | YUNGI

Loving you is hard

Yunho pov :

As time goes by

It's getting harder to be next to him 

Because when I'm around him

I have thoughts

Thoughts that I can't push away anymore

Every time he touches me
I have this feeling

Every time he stares at me
I have the same feeling

Every time he compliments me
I have the same feeling

I don't know what to do

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I would have thought that as time goes by I would lose those feelings

But no

I sit by and watch everything

At lunch when she would randomly just stare at him
I would look the other way

When she would try to hug him
I would look the other way

when they interlocked their hands
I would look the other way

And god does it hurt
It fucking hurts

So

I'm saving myself the pain

I'm going to distance myself

It's the best thing I can do for myself

" Heeey yun do you want to hang out "

Every lie

" I'm busy maybe next...time ? "

That I'm telling

" heyyy yun... it's been uhh weeks since we last hanged out..uh I just missed you"

" uhh sorry I have something to do today"

" oh "

Is to save myself

" yun is everything ok we haven't talk since last month.... I miss you "

" sorry I have to go "

from Pain and more heartbreak

So I distanced myself

I pulled away completed

Ignored his text

Ignore his calls

And I completely ignored him

And

I started hanging out with more people

but they never filled the loneliness I feel

I don't think anyone ever will
But him .

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It's been 2 months

since I last talked to him

It was hard
So hard

But I'm doing the right thing
He has a girlfriend
He doesn't need me

Right-

I feel something grab my arm

I look to see what

Fuck it's mingi

" what are you doing???! " I say quickly as he pulling me by my arm

" follow me" he says emotionless while still pulling me by my arm

So I let him

Next thing I know I'm in an empty classroom

He finally lets go of me

And then

He's walking in-front of me

But he just randomly turns around

And now

He's in front of me

Just staring at me

Emotionless

I feel frozen

I can't find anything to say

All I can hear is the clock ticking

My breathing Speeding up

And my heart pounding

I feel like running

Running out the classroom

But then he says something

" did I do something?"

God no

No mingi
You didn't do anything

I'm sorry

I'm sorry mingi

I'm sorry that I'm ruining what we have just because I'm fucking in love with you

those words never left my mouth though

Just unsaid words I'll never be able to say to
Him

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