The Boy With A Child

Chapter 66

Onyx's POV
I stood in the shower for a while. I wasn't doing anything. I was just staring at the wall while, I was thinking.

I have no idea..what I should do about my mother...

Should I let her in?

Should I push her away even more?

What if...she hurts my girls?

She can hit me again.

I'd prefer that...I get hit instead of them.

I've always taken the beatings..

I guess...that's what I'm supposed to do.

I heard a knock on the door.

"Nyx? Are you okay? You've been in there for a while now. Did you accidentally fall asleep? You can take a nap if you need it."

I head the door open.

"Onyx?"

I snapped back to reality.

"H-huh?! What? Yeah, sounds good."

"Baby are you okay?"

"Yeah. I-I'm okay. I-I must've lost track of time. I was just thinking a lot."

"Well...were you thinking about anything bad?"

"N-no. I-I just couldn't find a way to occupy myself. I-I thought showering would help me think. Plus, I thought I smelled."

"Okay one, you don't smell. Two, that's strange. You always find a way to occupy yourself."

"I-I know."

"Is there something, we have to talk about?"

"At the moment...I don't think so...I-I just feel off. At least that's what's wrong."

"MJ's napping so, we can talk now."

I turned off the water.

"I-I'll be out in just a sec."

I felt a tear slide down my face. I sniffled.

"Onyx? I'm coming in."

"N-no. I-I'm okay. I-I'll c-come out now."

"You're definitely not okay."

I felt arms going around my waist. I felt my back get kissed.

"Spill. What's going on in that head of yours?"

"I-I was thinking about my mom."

"I fuckin knew it."

I turned around. I wrapped my arms around Primrose. I broke down. She started rubbing my back.

"I have no fuckin idea what to do! I-I'm fine with me getting hurt! B-but I can't let you girls get hurt!"

"Shh. I'm sure there's a way that, nobody gets hurt. This isn't fair to you. You're only 18. You grew up too fast."

"I-I'm scared of my own mind."

"What does that mean?"

"I-I'm so screwed up. I'm scared to get close to people. I'm scared I-I'll get left behind. Please don't fuckin leave me behind."

"What's gotten into you?"

"Whatever plan my mother has, it's clearly working."

The room started spinning. Primrose caught me before I fell.

"That's it. You need to lay down."

She helped me get out of the shower. Then she helped me get dressed. My legs started to wobble.

"You have to lay down."

"I-I feel sick."

"Nyxy you're overwhelmed."

Primrose helped me get to our bed. I fell onto it. The room started spinning faster. My chest started hurting. I was hyperventilating.

"Onyx?"

My eyes started to get heavy.

"Onyx?!"

Primrose cupped my face.

"What's going on?!"

I felt my eyes shut. I felt my body shaking.

"Nyx wake up!"

My eyes opened and I saw an unfamiliar celling. I groaned. I looked around. I saw Primrose sitting in the chair.

"What happened? Where am I?"

"Thank god!"

She ran up to me.

"You're in the hospital. You passed out. You stopped breathing."

"I-I did?"

"Yes."

"Where's Mari?"

"She's with my dad. Don't worry. She's safe."

"Good. Good."