The Boy With A Child

Chapter 80

Onyx's POV
"Nyxy I-I am so sorry! People say things they don't mean when, they're mad!"

"Well...I hate my life! You know what? Fuck you!"

"What?!"

I felt her grab my wrist.

"Stop! I-I'm sorry! I-I love you!"

"No you don't. I'm dumb. I fell in love with someone else. This time...I'm purposely dying."

"ONYX STOP! PLEASE!"

"Let me go Primrose. It's better this way."

"N-no i-it's not!"

"I apologize for being a waste of time and space for you. You deserve better. Someone else will love you. I guess...it won't be me."

"Y-you're scaring me!"

"I honestly do not care."

I felt her tighten her grip on my wrists.

"Nyxy I-I apologize!"

"Take my kids and just go. It's what's best for everyone."

"Onyx shut up!"

"Get the FUCK off, of me!"

"No! I won't lose you! I can't lose you!"

I scoffed.

"Says the one who, threw their ring at me then, proceeded to walk away."

"Baby please! I-I'm extremely sorry!"

"Me too. Me fucking too Gomez. I'm going to say this one more bloody time. Let...go...of...me!"

"NO! I WILL NEVER DO THAT!"

"Daddy? Mommy? You're scaring Mally. What's wrong?"

"Daddy's leaving. Mommy's taking you somewhere that's not by me."

I felt arms going around my legs.

"Daddy no!"

"Onyx stop! Please! You're breaking my damn heart!"

"Good. Now you know...what you just did to me. Marionette go help your brother."

"NO!"

"Onyx please!"

"I want you both to know that...none of this was your fault. This is all on me. It always was. And it always will be. I'm a failure as your father. I'm a failure as your fiancé. I'm just a fucking failure that...should've been gone...years ago."

"Onyx please stop! You're going back to the fucking hospital!"

"Nah. I'll be in the morgue soon. Actually...the house is yours."

Someone knocked on the door.

"That's Cecilia and Cody. Marionette go let them in."

"No Marionette don't."

"ONYX STOP!"

Primrose showed up in front of me. I looked away.

"Onyx look at me!"

"You can't look at me. I can't look at you. Funny how that works right?"

"Onyx stop!"

"Primrose stop!"

"Marionette go downstairs."

I heard her run away.

"Onyx look at me goddamnit!"

"No. There's no point."

"Why not?!"

"If I look at you then, I won't leave. I won't be able to do it."

"Then look at me! I know you don't want to die!
Y-you can hit him! W-would that make this better?!"

"Now you say I can? Funny how, me threatening suicide, makes you change your pretty mind."

Primrose started shaking me.

"Look at me!" She yelled as her voice cracked.

"I can't. I'll spare you the clean up. I have about 30 sleeping pills left. I'll take those. I won't be missed by anyone."

"STOP! That's not true!"

"Yes. Yes it is. I cannot win. Life hates me. This is why I can't have nice things."

"My love please! Look at me!"

My leg was killing me but, I didn't care.

Primrose grabbed my face and forced me to look at her.

"I apologize for all of this. It does not matter, who is wrong and who is right."

"Yeah. It does. You're right. You always have been."

"Onyx shut up and fucking listen to me! All those things you said, aren't true! Everyone would miss you! Your best IS enough! I DO love you! I love you so goddamn much! YOU matter! I-I'm so fucking sorry! Please don't do this! Please! I-I can't lose you! I NEED you!"

"You just had a funny way of showing it just now. You really did Primrose."

"Stop! Please! You're...you're scaring me!"

"Good. That's what I wanted to do."

"Huh?!"

"Without you, I've got no reason to live."

"That is NOT true! You have Marionette! You have Malakai! Roxana's gonna be here in just a few more weeks!"

"1 month."

"Huh?"

"You've got 1 month."

"1 m-month for what?"

"Prove everything you just said to me. Prove to me that I matter. Prove to me I have reasons to live. Prove to me that...you really do love me. You have 30 days. If you don't then...I'll be gone...I'll just be a memory. My kids will forget all about me."

"W-w-huh?! You're giving me a deadline?! A-are you insane?!"

"I guess that's one way to put it."

I walked away. I went downstairs. I saw my mother and cousin sitting on the couch. I did what, I said I was going to do. I punched Cody.

"Onyx Stone!"

"Damn...nice to see you too."

"Where the fuck where you?!"

"Dude, nobody told you? I was in California at a drug rehab place."

"Nope. Nobody tells me anything these days."

"Daddy! You upset Mally!"

"I-I know. Where is he?"

"In a corner!"

"Marionette Jane do not even think about yelling at me."

"You're supposed to be resting!"

"Marionette leave me alone. I already had an argument with your mother. I do not want to have one with you."

Marionette kicked me.

"You're just like that meanie Alister!"

That broke me even more.

"Marionette Jane that was completely wrong!"

"I don't care!"

"See Primrose? See? I don't have a reason to live."

"Onyx that's not fucking true!"

"Then, why did our daughter, compare me to a dickhead?"

"S-she's upset!"

Primrose dragged me over to the recliner chair.

"Sit down."

I sat down in the chair and reclined it.

"Don't move."

Primrose walked over to my cousin. She did something I've never seen her do before. She slapped someone. She slapped Cody.

"You're the reason we just had an argument. You're a dick!"