criminal of hearts ; jaywon

nineteen

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HI. YES. IM STILL ALIVE. i'm so so sorry for disappearing yall but college truly took me by the hair, threw me on the ground, smashed me with a wrecking ball, and told me to fuck myself in the ass. i have about a million assignments and tests to keep up with that have been fucking me over and i haven't had time to do a lot of things :(

i almost forgot abt this bc i was so so busy by im rly sorry ;-: i love yall sm thank u for staying <33

anyways here's a new chapter that i am rushing to finish rn bc why the hell not and bc i feel bad for abandoning yall :(

i'd also like to tell you all that i'm a BOY so please don't call me unnie jsjdjsjds

it'd been a while since jungwon actually felt...happy. he didn't know if he could even describe himself with that word anymore after everything he'd been through in his life. but in all honesty? for the first time in forever, maybe for the first time in general, he was happy. he could smile. he knew he was having 3 meals a day, he knew he was going to get up early to go to school, he knew he had some friends.

and he knew he had an incredible boyfriend who just so happened to be richer than anyone he'd ever met in his life. his lifeline, his emotional support, his pillar, his everything. jay was truly just a gift from heaven to him.

and so jungwon made it his mission to hide as much of his past as he could; he didn't want the ever so perfect jay knowing what he used to do for a living and he definitely didn't want him to know he put his own mother in the hospital once. jake was proud of him, very proud, seeing jungwon finally cope healthily and being able to see him not wallowing in self pity anymore.

jungwon also made an effort to change for good. it was for jay. for himself. for them. for the future they were going to have together, that would hopefully be one that would last a long time. honestly, moments like this when he and jay were just giggling in a car ride back home were the best for him; he liked hearing himself laugh, as weird as it sounded. 

and most of all, he tried to make an effort to move on from kyungmin.

"jay hyung?"

jay looked at him, sweetly carressing his hand with his thumb. "yes, my love?"

"i want to thank you," jungwon said softly. "for helping me."

jay laughed. "it's nothing, darling. you know how much i love you. i'd give you everything i have."

"you've given me so much!" jungwon exclaims. "and you gave me the opportunity to finally...reach out for help and be happy. i've never been happy, i think. but you make me happy, hyung. i really really love you. thank you for being so amazing to a nobody like me."

jay leaned in and pressed a kiss on his boyfriend's cheek. "i should be telling you that. you're not a nobody, you're my little ray of sunshine. if anything, you've helped me learn to love as well. i thought i would just be an emotionless sack of crap forever, but then you walked into my life and look at me now."