Nightfall Reveries and Solitude

Poem #15: Peace

Everything was clear and frozen in time
My whisper could come out as a scream
My mere touch could ruin the waters' nonexistent seam
I envy the trees for they are lush and standing strong and tall
Contrary to my knees, weak and any time could fall

It has been ten long agonizing days since I come out to feel the air
Drowning in my own haywire thoughts and crying in despair
Peace was never in my sleep or when I'm awake
Unlike these waters that was oblivious to the mess I make
Oblivious to the things I forsake

Standing here and taking in what these blues and greens are in to display
For a second there my pondering stopped and took another way
Clearing a path enough for a beacon of light to peek
Making me see enough of something I didn't know I seek
Some naked truths I'm afraid to speak

I thought it was for the better
When I chose peace that night and it was over
Peace was the never the question but it was always the answer
Yet it haunts me on my dreams every single night
It haunts me now through this forlorn sight