Can you love me?

Chapter Thirty-Nine: Bad dreams

Natasha's POV:

"Stop it Natalia. Your weak. You deserve nothing. Wanda and Sofia are with you for pity. Pity that is all." I backed further into the corner, shutting my eyes tighter and tighter, clutching onto floop and jeremy. "That's not true! No! That's.. that's not true! Mama said not true! Th.. that's no.. no. Please STOP IT!" The man was coming towards me, faster and faster reaching forward. I could hear his breathing and his heavy cologne caused me to cough and splutter. Just as he was about to pull me into a hug, i ducked and ran. The room i was in, it wasn't my own. It wasn't mamas, nor was it tinks. It was my old room. The room i wanted to forever forget. "LET ME GO! MAMA TINK HELP PLEASE MAMA!" I screamed and screamed until my voice was hoarse, his laughing echoing around the room. Filling my lungs with his sickening smell. "Oh little one. Oh my dear little one, daddy is here. Daddy is here."

I felt myself, my mind, slowly warping to please him. His arms wrapping around me in his tight embrace. How he rubbed my sides and kissed my hair. "Wan' mama ples daddy.. wan tinks ples.." He just shushed me and sat my down on his knee, pushed up against the wall. "Little one, i missed you. Your home now, your home Natalia. Daddy's got you." He winked at me and left me, taking me off his knee onto the cold marble floor below. Fuck. Uh oh, no no words. No. It's fine. It's fine. Be big Natasha. Stop being such a fucking baby. Stop being weak. I adjusted my eyes to the darkness and scanned the room, floop was discarded in the middle and Jeremy was, luckily, still in my arms. I ran. I grabbed floop and ran out of the room.

Sirens were blaring and the corridor grew red with flashing lights. "GO GO GO! GET HER NOW!" Men started running towards me, pointing their guns. I reached for my gun, my knives anything. But my stupid dora pyjamas didn't allow for those modifications, plus my 'weapon privileges' had been taken away since.. So it was just me. "Natasha! Hey hey hey Natasha!" I paused mid kick and stared around the corridor, nobody stopped. Big mistake. Within a second i was on the floor, whimpering like a weak baby. I felt two arms wrap around me and i elbowed their ribs, hard. They didn't move. Their arms stay wrapped around me in a tight embrace. "It's not real. Your trapped kay? Can you open your eyes natty? Open your eyes nat. Its safe." I clenched my eyes shut, tighter and tighter until my head throbbed and tears escaped through the small holes.

"C-cant." I whispered, my voice shaking with every syllable. "That's okay. You tried hmm? I'm proud of you Natty. Why don't we find mama.." It's a trap. Stop it. I elbowed the man in the stomach, hard. I heard him buckle and i slid down the wall beside me, rocking backwards and forward. I felt somebody pick me up, their arms holding me protectively as another person stroked my hair. "Dekta.. It's mama. It's mama baby." She slowly bounced me and i nuzzled my head further into her chest. "Tinks here too baby girl, shall we look at her?" My eyes fluttered open but the light was too bright, whining i shook my head. "That's okay bubs, shall we go somewhere darker?" She kissed my forehead and held my hand as mama walked my through the halls.

"There we go sweetheart, can you look up at mama?" The room was darker now, softer. I smiled as I saw mama and tink cuddled closely, bouncing me on their lap. "There's our pretty baby girl! We missed you soooooooooooo much!" Mama exaggerated her voice, making me giggle. "Now, how about we get you a baba and get you settled back to bed princess?" Tink booped my nose and stood up, but i clutched onto her finger- practically pulling her back down. "Nuh uh yu stay heres wif me an mama." I pointed to Tink, then me, then mama and grinning. "Baby girl, i think we need to go check on Clint he looked like he had some owies hmm?" Then it hit me. Shit. "D-did i hurt him.." I saw Wanda's eyes soften and she began shaking her head profusely.

"No. No, it was an accident love. Just a pure accident." There was a sudden bash at the door, causing me to jump and tears to fill my eyes. Luckily, Wanda hugged me closer, kissing my head. "Yooo that was sick! You have some moves, you were so pow pow!" Pietro began demonstrating some demonic moves in the doorframe. "Dickhead. Not the time speedy boy." My mouth opened to form a perfect O shape at the sound of no nos. "Sofia! We have Natasha here." Tink spun round and started giggling sheepishly. "Oh shit! Wait.. Oh sugar.. Yeah. Oh sugar." Sofia winked and me and did a thumbs up to Wanda before shoving Pietro out the door. "Right! So Clint then baba! Are you guys coming or what?" Mama looked at me and we both burst into laughter. "Come on! Chop chop i don't have all day christ."

We were quickly pulled out of the room and along the corridors to where Steve was standing, having a very serious looking conversation with Clint. "Hey Natty, you okay now?" Clint smiled at me and squeezed my hand, nodding towards the two girls besides me. I merely nodded and wrapped me arms tighter around Wanda. "You didn't hurt me Natty, it was an accident. What did we always used to say back at the farm?" Clint lifted my chin slightly and gave me an encouraging look. "Accidents happen.." I mumbled, knowing i'd just proved his point. "Good girl. Now i think your mama and tink are going to get your baba, how about some dora?" My eyes lit up and i nodded eagerly. Whining more and more, just wanting dora. "Okay baby girl, okay we're getting it."

soooo um hey 👋🏻 i didn't know what to write and not to be a bitch but it's been a tough month 🙃 and i'm doing absolutely fantastic ✨ i'm trying to get back but excuse the bad chapters and i'm sorry for not updating i know i'm a terrible person but i hope this suffices for now idk?

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Lily x