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[15] Chapter 15

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I wake up to kisses peppered on my face and as I groan at the sudden sunlight that invaded my vision when I open my eyes, I hear giggles.

"Good morning, love." I rasp, unable to keep the giddy smile off my face at Alycia's giggles.

I groan as I attempt to open my eyes again, pulling Alycia, and the blanket, over to lay on top of me. I wrap my arms around the Australians waist, sighing contently.

"Much better." My voice comes out muffled from the fabric of Alycia's shirt. I feel gentle and slender fingers in my hair, scratching my head gently. "Keep that up and I'll fall back asleep.." I whisper, not finding the energy to stop her motions.

"Get up, sleepyhead." She mumbles, attempting to move. I groan, tugging her body close to mine. In my attempt to cling the Australian to me, I had forgotten about her wound.

I heard a quiet gasp, followed by a quite yell and I quickly let go of Alycia, holding her up to keep her stable.

"Leashy I-" I tentatively move closer to her but remove my hands. My wide eyes scan over her, looking as she clutches around her stomach. "Leashy I didn't-" I try again. "I didn't mean to- I'm so sorry." It comes out in a whisper.

I see her nod but otherwise make no other motion to move.

I sit up, leaning against the headboard and looking at my lap, fiddling with my fingers. It's silent, and it feels like decades before she lets out a sigh and looks to me. I look up, catching her glossy eyes and I look back down, looking at my palms, hesitantly.

Sometimes my brain would make me see things. Relive things. Sometimes I saw the blood on my hands again. Her blood.

I balled my fists up in anger towards myself. I felt the bed move, assuming Alycia just wanted to be alone. Hell. I just hurt her, for gods sake. I should've been more careful. Should've payed attention.

A hand covers my own as another places itself on my chin, lifting my gaze. I meet Alycia's eyes with my own, a small, watery, smile resting upon her features.

My eyebrows furrow and I'm sure a pure look of confusion crosses my face. This makes Alycia giggle as she moves closer to me, pecking my lips in a small kiss. She pulls away, keeping her face only inches from mine. Her thumb rubs my chin back and forth, Alycia's eyes scanning mine.

"It's okay babygirl.." She chooses to say, gathering me into her arms.

A sob escapes from deep inside my chest, so quickly I don't have time to stop it. "I'm sorry— I'm so— I-" I shake my head and I feel the Australian pull me closer, resting her chin on my head.

Alycia rubs my back in soothing patterns, beginning to subtly rock back and forth, shushing me quietly. "It's okay baby, you're okay, I'm okay." I nod, choosing to not say anything else in the moment. I push my ear against the sound of her heartbeat, allowing it to sooth me for a few quiet moments.

It takes a few more quiet minutes of being in Alycia's arms before I gather the courage to speak.

"I don't want to be like— like him," I croak. She nods her head, presumably understanding I need this moment to speak.

"He...He hurt you and I—" I try to find the right words. "I am not like that." I shake my head to myself again, sighing and lifting my head. When I lock eyes with Alycia she gives me a small smile and her eyes speak all the words she can't.

"Y/n, you are...nothing like that..like him. You are everything and so much more." She wipes a stray tear from my cheek and gives me a reassuring smile.

"Now. It's about, nine AM? That leaves us..an hour of sappy cuddles, thirty minutes for breakfast..and thirty minutes to get dressed for work." She smiles, a smile I can't help but plaster on my own features.

As Alycia catches my smile growing, she pulls backwards, pulling me on top of her gently. I catch myself on my arms, smiling as I give her small kisses, dotting all around her face. She giggles as I dot final kisses on her nose, my lips finding their rightful place against hers.

"Hmm.." I mumble, slowly pulling away. She pulls me closer to her, burying her nose into my neck. I cave into her actions, falling to my side and pulling her close to my body.

"Care to..I don't know..maybe rest our heads on actual pillows?" I giggle when she shakes her head. "Nope," She pops the 'p'. "I have a perfectly good pillow right here." She smirks, moving her body to lay directly on top of mine, her nose burrowing itself into the crook of my neck once more.

I sigh, closing my eyes and enveloping the brunette into my arms. "You, Miss Debnam-Carey, are going to be the death of me." I can feel the smile forming onto her lips which in turn causes me to smile.

My phone buzzes, but I choose to ignore it. As it buzzes again, I groan, choosing to sit up, making sure Alycia stays against my chest comfortably, grabbing my phone to see a call incoming, and answering it.

"Hello?" I sigh into the phone. Alycia distractedly plays with a loose string on my shirt as I take the phone call.

"He what?" My eyebrows furrow, clenching my phone. "Alright. Thank you for letting me know..I'll be sure to tell her. Yep. Of course, again, thank you." I say the words gratefully but as I hang up the phone, I throw it to Alycia's nightstand in anger.

"Y/n?.." She quietly questions. I turn my head, fitting my gaze to hers.

"You need to be absolutely calm when I tell you this, okay?.."