My Metal Angel (Vince Neil X Tom Keifer A Love)

Chapter 17: The Morning -Day After (Vince Neil)

Making love.... i guess I've never truly made love until Tom. My Ex-wife didn't count. It's amazing really, prior to this past year people only saw me as the 'whore', the promiscuous one. They think they know me, they don't...though I admit prior to Tom it was all about a Fuck. But 1985 and then 86' changed all that. But Tom, it was like paradise...truly it was heaven and for once no nightmares, not this night. Currently it is well shit.... i don't know, it doesn't matter. In any case I guess it's late. Tom is still sleeping in my hold, his dark waves of hair falling over his face, snoring softly. He's the most beautiful goddess and I don't ever want to let this go...let him go.

Tonight.... tonight, was the most romantic night of my life. All the problems Tom and I have, disappeared. They always do when we're together...put on the back burner in my mind. I can't ignore reality forever, i can't. Doc.... always that evil Fucker. He had to be behind Nikki's breaks getting cut, I haven't voiced that out loud...but I can't prove it. I feel so fucking conflicted.... i haven't told Tom, though my lover is smart as hell. He has a fair guess.... i can only hope in time things will get better and that I and Tom will make it thru this shit storm together. There are other things I haven't told Tom, like me 'taking the heat' for Mick. What that meant, was Doc beat me...not my face or anything, that's part of the moneymaking machine after all...it fucking hurt, it did bruise my ribs. Even Mick doesn't know that I offered myself when he and Alice got together, Alice is a scary motherfucker when you threaten what is his i.e., Mick. So i did it to protect them both, Mick eventually did find out....

I can't help it; I start crying silently...I don't want to disturb my love.... somehow, I go back to sleep, and next thing I know I find myself waking up again...Tom still asleep and sunlight is filtering in thru the windows. I look at Tom and everything disappears...

"Love you." I whisper. Tom stirs slightly, but only to burrow deeper into my embrace. I really don't want to move, I really fucking don't. I feel tears spring to my eyes...., "Tom." I whisper, desperately really. I close my eyes, trying to not once again lose it. I inhale and exhale slowly as I can, breathing in Tom's sweet scent is the biggest help, I hold him a while longer...20 min or so until he begins to stir, slowly those grey eyes I love so much open, and I see the awe and the love shinning in their depths.

"Hi...Morning Vinny."

I chuckle noticing that it is in fact early afternoon. "You mean afternoon, but I'll forgive you my beautiful Queen." I can feel my brows knit together in concern. "How are you feeling? I know you must be sore...and i-I sure I left bruises, sorry!"

"Candy lips...I am glad I am forgiven...." Tom starts teasingly. "Hmm I am sore, but I feel WONDERFUL and don't worry about the bruises, I know you didn't knowingly hurt me. Last night...was well...PARADISE. I am PROUD to be yours in all ways Vince Neil."

"As I am proud to be YOURS Tom Keifer." I lean in and claim his lips, our lips then working in harmony with one another, truly there is nothing better than this. "You don't have anything band wise to do today?" I question him, his smile is answer enough.

"Mmm. Nope."

"Good. Babe, I know since you said you were sore...how about I run you a bath? Ease your sore muscles?" I brush his hair out of his face, caressing it.

"MMM, tell you what Vinny.... I'd love that, BUT only if you join me."

"Your wish is my command my Queen." I fairly purr that out, so another round may well be imminent. I am rewarded by Tom's deep blush. My eyes never leave his, I stride fairly skipping to the bathroom, all while feeling Tom's gaze burning a hole in me. I get the bath started in the tub and add in one of my favorite scents: Lavender. It's very relaxing. It perfumes the air and I feel, the long arms of my lover wrap around me, and I smile.

"I thought I'd just come see you..." Tom says as I lean back into him.

"Ah...but I can't see YOU." I tease, as I spin around. "Now I can!"

Tom laughs, "So cheesy Vinny!"

"But baaaabeee...you love my cheesy!" I quip grinning and I notice the tub is full. "Oh, bath's ready, hope you love lavender!" Tom grins. That's all the answer I need as I go first, and then help him in, Tom and I floating together in harmony. His back against my chest, his long fingers intertwining with mine.

"This is...nice.... i love this...thank you Vinny for doing this! You've done so much for me." Tom speaks softly.

"I'd do anything for you Tom.... anything. you are here with me is all the thanks I need. "I speak just as softly. Tom and I float in the tub, just simply enjoying each other and the warm lavender scented water until the water gets Lukewarm and we get out, both of us drying off and taking care of our other toiletries. I opt to wear a t-shirt and shorts, Tom wears a t-shirt and pair of sweats he'd left over there the last time he'd stayed with me, and we head downstairs, to my practice area, where a piano and my guitars reside. Yes, I play guitar.... I'm nowhere near good as Mick or Tom, I'm more of a rhythm guy anyway...but...I...

"Vinny? You, ok?" Tom's concerned voice floats to me.

"Huh?" Is all I manage to get out.

"I've been trying to get your attention for 2 minutes...Sure you are, ok?" Tom asks again.

I shake my head to clear the fog, "Yeah...you wanna jam? I have a guitar. Its not the ones you play, but I play some...not as good as you are though."

"I would love to jam! And Vinny? Don't doubt yourself, I bet you sound amazing." Tom's smiles are radiant and immediately I feel better.

"Thanks Babe, I need to hear that." I tell him gratefully. Tom picks up one of my electric guitars, I pick up another, and so we jam...we play his songs, him playing more lead and me rhythm....and we get lost in the music, the joy of just being in the moment and doing what we love with the one we love. At some point Tom, plays the piano and I play acoustic. Suddenly I realize that I am starving! "Tom? I AM SO HUNGRY!"

"Me too! I just now realized." Tom smiles sheepishly. We stop playing, putting the guitars and all back in their places where we head to the kitchen and I rustle up something quick, but good. Thai chicken wraps and a cucumber/mango salad. Tom and I leave no leftovers. I tell you that now, after we ate, we cuddled on the couch and watched tv. And my thoughts, stay in the moment...for now.

Oh, I didn't know then, that I'd already gotten Tom pregnant.... i wouldn't find out officially I should say till he was 3 months and, in the hospital...I don't want to give too much away, but things would turn out fine. In any case, a month from now, a month and a few days to be more exact.... Tom would leave me, so my nightmare of him leaving me would come true along with my heart being broken or was it totally broken? After all, I would fight to get him back, I didn't give up.... but getting him back, could have cost me my life.... i did it to get Tom back and keep him safe, to keep all of us safe. Doesn't mean it wasn't hell....

A/N: Vince's internal conflict, insight into what he really meant when he referred to 'taking the heat' for Mick and things yet to come. Next chapter, a confrontation between Tom and Doc and Tom leaving Vince, thereby making his nightmare come true. Stay tuned!