Another month has passed, and Vince and I have been seeing each other for 2 months now...2 months. I love him dearly with every fiber of my being...but the weird phone calls and photo shopped pictures...they've stopped. Let me clarify, they've stopped coming to ME and have instead according to Vince, have been coming to him. He's been having nightmares, since I am with him as much as possible most nights when I'm not completely busy with band work and Vinny isn't busy with work, but things have been rough. I just can't shake the feeling something, somewhere is going to break wide open, me, Vince...everyone really. The thing is, I STILL feel like all that Vinny, and I are going thru is a bad sign...well not ALL bad. We both feel safe with one another, and we've gone on more dates...
It's just all so much...so much...and then there's Nikki Sixx and Jeff.... speaking of which, that brings us to now: Vince and I on the way to Nikki's place, Nikki wanted everyone there and Vinny and I have been speculating what's going on---
"Sixx...I guarantee its something FUCKING huge. Doc's really been pressuring him and us to work on another album already, its not the right damn time for that shit, plus He's been acting weird when I've seen him...pale...and...I thought it was drugs or Heroin sickness, but I think.... OH GOD!!" Vince grips the steering wheel hard, tears in his eyes. "I think...I could be wrong, but I think Nikki just may be well pregnant."
I gape at him, "I...WOW. Um makes sense.... but you sound scared."
"I AM...not about Nikki possibly carrying Jeff's baby, but Tom he's been thru some dark shit...I am scared because he's my brother and Doc.... well from what I heard you tell me, Nikki's breaks were cut, but Jeff saved his life." Vince sounds so sad, so pained. Nothing more is said when we reach Nikki's place and, Alice Cooper answers the door.
"Jeff is with Nikki, Nikki insisted to have this gathering...he really doesn't look good. But like he needs to do this..." Alice trails off concerned, no worried.
Vince raises an eyebrow, "Where's the kids?"
"Mick's parents," Alice replies, leading Vinny, and I to the living room where everyone is gathered and Nikki who is weeping clinging to his lover, desperately. Jeff trying to soothe Nikki. Vince and I find seats, I can feel Vince trembling, but he wraps an arm around me, to steady himself.
"Nikki...baby, are you SURE you wanna do this? I'm here, ok...I'm here. They'll understand, everyone is here for you." Jeff gently cups Nikki's tear-streaked face in his hands, thumbing away his tears.
"I-I- need to.... but...scared." Nikki says slowly.
"Breath baby...breathe...." Jeff tells him, but then his eyes widen as Nikki gestures for something, and Jeff passes him a bowl, as Nikki heaves into it for a few minutes before stopping, as Jeff gets something to clean Nikki's mouth out with and something to drink, smells like peppermint tea.
Slowly, Nikki sits up leaning against Jeff...and manages to say...
"Thank you everyone for coming...this---everything I'm about to say...I never thought I'd say or do. But the drugs, well for about 2 months now.... when I'd try to do them, I'd immediately get sick, sick at the thought, sick if I managed to ingest or whatever. If you haven't guessed, I'm about 2 months pregnant." Jaws drops and gasps, ring thru out the room...Vince was right, he was right. Nikki continues with difficulty, "See, since I've met Jeff...I've never, had anyone that truly wanted to get to know me, EVERY part of me, the darkness, the abused past, the sexual abuse and i felt that no one...I didn't want to hurt Jeff with all of that. I didn't realize I was pregnant until here recently and feel like a horrible person, because I could have killed our baby, a baby...I don't have good examples of a parent...hell I don't have parents, or so I'd thought...Alice and Mick are the closest people I have to parents...and Jeff...there's something I need to tell you, that I feel ready to say...that if it wasn't for YOU never giving up on me...Jeff I love you, I fucking LOVE you." Nikki turns to a wide-eyed Jeff, who although tearful and stunned...has never looked happier.
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My Metal Angel (Vince Neil X Tom Keifer A Love)
RomanceFebruary 1986, another new year...and all is NOT well. Especially for one Vince Neil, who has in the past year lost EVERYTHING: his four-year-old daughter to cancer, his wife who was never there for him anyway even before his daughter's cancer...now...
