My Metal Angel (Vince Neil X Tom Keifer A Love)

Chapter 22: Been 2 months, i Need my Heart back... (Tom Keifer)

2 months have come and gone since I left my heart behind....and God it's been so HARD to say the least. Between my morning sickness and my stress/worries...it's all been more than over whelming, and I've waged a war against my head...For I am FINALLY realizing, Vince made my fears go away when ever I was with him and all this time, I've needed him, and he's needed me. I am finally I believe starting to see what My Vinny and everyone else has been telling me. I haven't spoken to Vince well other than the letters, its those lasts bits of insecurity...those last bits of fears that cling to me. We need to TALK, that much is clear...but one thing I DO know, is that I need MY heart back.

Currently, I am on my knees heaving over the toilet. My morning sickness rearing its head once again, despite having been giving something to help. I whimper and groan, tears stream down my face. I had to, I had to tell Vince about our children.... they seem despite everything to be doing ok, but I wish so badly Vince was holding my hair back, taking care of me.... it's what I've needed.... i just need to get it all out there, open completely...

Finally, I finish, and shakily get up off the floor hands on my baby bump and stumble my way to the sink and rinse out my mouth....

"Uggh.... I really hope you two are ok like the doctor says, I'm scared...you two are...I mean I'm underweight." I feel the tears come to my eyes, just feeling so weak and tired. "I-I bet one of you is a girl, girls make for rougher morning sickness, so I've heard...and one of you is a boy. I feel that SO strong. Never doubt how much I love you both...never." I hear knocks sound at the door, and the sounds of someone letting themselves in and the familiar voices of Jeff, Nikki and Eric and Fred float to me. Everyone is here...but my Vinny....

Slowly, as I feel a bit dizzy, I make my way to the living room, and everyone looks at me with wide eyes...

"Whoa...Tom...you don't look good. Fred, give me a hand.... lay him on the couch." Eric's voice is steady, but urgent as I feel my self lead to the couch and carefully layed down the room spinning, me groaning.

"Dude...didn't the doctor give you something?" Fred's voice sounds like its coming from a tunnel.

"W-Won't, s-stop...no...h-help..." Every word is slow and forced.

"Tom, don't talk...please and I think we should take you to the hospital." A VERY worried Nikki Sixx states tearfully.

"n-No..." I close my eyes, and minutes later it seems to pass...but someone I don't know who brings me back water, which I guzzle...and it does little to make me feel better. Fred helps prop me up with Eric's help to where I am comfy as can be and I rest my hands on my swollen stomach. "Thanks...everyone...why are you all here?" I am touched, yet I have this sinking feeling I can't explain....my eyes widen..., "Vinny?" I question tearfully.

Nikki sighs heavily, "You know how...the past few days you haven't gotten any letters?"

I nod, "Y-Yeah....is he..." I trail off, hoping to God he isn't...I don't want to imagine THAT.

"No.... not dead..." Nikki relieves THAT fear. "He's been in the hospital for a few days or was, he's...the exhaustion was severe, they had to I am sorry to say...give him something to make him sleep. He's been a man on a mission, he was getting sick. He's back home now...but it's not over."

"I-I-I...didn't know." I hang my head in shame before I exhale slowly, "This is MY fault..." I rub my swollen stomach gently, trying to ground myself.

"Bull shit! Its NOT yours...it's Doc's!" Nikki snarls, who with herculean effort manages to calm himself. "That being said...you'd been a dumbass, for believing that you weren't good enough for Vince, that he wouldn't understand...he's nearly killed HIMSELF for YOU. And he'd do it over and over Tom, and.... i am sorry if I've upset you..." Nikki cries, as he reaches for Jeff who gently holds Nikki as best, he can. "You NEED to see, let go...let GO. I get it, the fears, the insecurity of being in the public eye even more so because of him, all that shit disappears...when you are with the one you love. TALK to him about it ALL."

"You're right..." I start slowly, HE IS right! My eyes narrow, "There's something else." Fear making my heart clinch.

Surprisingly Fred of all people answers, "Yeah man....so like he called all of us...between evidence gathered from Nikki, Vince himself and Alice, and Mick and everyone...the cops...well, he was kind of telling us good-bye it felt like. He said, he's gonna...be wired, it is happening soon today or tomorrow, he's confronting Doc."

"WHAT?!!!" Shocked and stunned, knew this was coming but still. I manage to ask, "What else did he say?" Really wanting to know what he told me....

This time Eric answers, "he told all of us to tell you Tom...to tell you, that he loves you...he loves your children and that soon you guys will be together. He's doing this for you...for everyone, he said to tell you too, 'You Tom is the love of my life, my beloved Queen.... i will gladly face my fears and yours and take them both on, for you are the one whose NEVER truly left me. It makes me so emotional and happy to know, that literally part of me is always with you literally.'"

Everyone with me now is crying, I am full on sobbing...., "P-Please...s-some o-one hand me my phone..." It's time, time I TALKED to risk..., "I need to call him.... leave a message... Please." My tone desperate. Someone hands me my phone carefully and shakily, I dial Vinny's number and it rings and rings and rings till his answering machine gets it, "V-Vinny...It's Tom...baby...it feels like a fucking lifetime.... I know what's been going on, what you are doing for me, for us...everyone. I am PROUD of you, love you so much baby...I as soon as you...can...need to s-see you. Love you..." I am unable to continue as I drop the phone, hearing shouts of my name...as everything fades to black....

I wake up panicking until I hear someone say, "If you're wondering the twins are ok...they are going to keep you here for a few days, to get some food and fluids in you as well." Finally, I manage to realize that it's Fred that spoke and Eric too is here....

"Where's...Nikki and Jeff?" I question mind still a bit fogged.

Fred and Eric look at one another before Eric answers, "Jeff and Nikki went home...Nikki needed rest, he's ok....and they received a phone call from Vince.... he got your message...but...." Eric stalls...

"But what?"

Eric clears his throat, "You've been out for a good day...and, well IT's going down if it hasn't already.... he said to tell you...Doc summoned him as planned...but this will be a fight for Vince's life. He said to tell you...he's sorry he didn't tell you in person, that he loves you...and that he's facing his greatest demon because you are his biggest strength."

"When was this? Oh...I...I..." I break down and cry, desperate to calm down for my twins' sakes. Shakily I manage to get out, "I want him...please...please let him be ok!" I am feeling so nauseous, but Fred I think brings me tea which helps and something to eat, which I hope will help...nothing though helps my pain go away and before I know it, I drift off once again......

I seem to be dreaming.... sitting on a bench, it seems to be fall...leaves blowing around, looking like a dance in mid-air. I am alone and pregnant....and suddenly I hear a child's voice, I turn my eyes widening...SKYLAR!!

"Hewo! I guardian angel for you and daddy.... Daddy, will be ok...twust me!"

"How do you know?" I question her tearfully.

"I just do...it won't be easy, life..." Skylar searches for words...

"Life on the line?" I finish, she nods.

"Bad man will try and hurt...daddy fight back...daddy won't be badly hurt. Twust me, twust daddy. Just bwuses.... he wuv you and so do I. thank you for loving daddy and giving me siblings." Here I cry, as I feel so warm as she hugs me. "I got to go soon."

"I know sweetheart and thank you...I love you too and your daddy...I am sorry I left him; it was a huge mistake...I've felt..." A gentle little hand on my cheek.

"It hurt I know...but it's bwought you an'; daddy cwoser...it will make wuv stronger. Bye-Bye..." She smiles, and I feel the warmth of her little hug and hand...as she disappears and the leaves they continue to dance in the air.

A/N: I needed tissues in parts of this chapter, and I am the one who wrote it.... some twists, family moments and more...next chapter is the confrontation between Doc and Vince and soon Tom and Vince will be reunited. Stay tuned!