Jake (Duskwood) Oneshot Collection

Those meds

(depression)

Standing in my kitchen I'm making myself a mug of hot chocolate. In the last few days a lot happened. Including the fact that Jake made it out of the mine just in time and since then we're texting again . To be more specific: we are currently chatting. Yet, we haven't talked about the truth concerning the man without a face yet. Or more like: the man now with a face. Ugh, inappropriate jokes are in the house...
With that thought I go into the living room, sit down on the couch and start browsing through my phone. Until Jake sends a text.

MC?
Can I ask you something?

I stare at the screen, having a weird feeling about the conversation that is about to happen.

Sure
What's up?

I would like to know how you are feeling.

I'm good so far

That's not what I meant.
I mean...
After everything that happened.
After that with Richy.

I should have known that he'd be the one bringing up this topic. Sighing I start typing.

If I really have to talk about my feelings...
Could we do it at least via call?
Please?

Knowing Jake and the situation he's still in, there's no way he'll agree. Maybe this way I don't have to talk about it. Though, the moment my phone signals an incoming video call I forget to breath. After a second of hesitation I hit the "accept"-button.

"Hello Jake." A small smile tugs on my lips. "Hello MC", the hacker answers. His voice is again distorted, his figure sitting in semi darkness. "How are you?" I sigh at his question. "Good I guess. At least better than expected..." He stays silent, probably waiting for me to continue talking. "It's just... since Richy... since everything ended, I feel kinda numb inside." At this point I stop myself from going into detail. Jake doesn't need to know that when Richy pulled off his mask I almost began to spiral in my head. That in the meantime while I didn't know if Jake was still alive I was sitting alone in my room, consumed by the darkness inside me. My fear, sadness, the feeling of betrayal... it all mixed together as a silent poison, creeping through my veins, making me feel hurt, lonely and numb all at once. After months I had to start taking my meds again.
Blinking a few times I force my concentration back to Jake. The shadow that's his body leans back in his chair. After a few moments he speaks up. "You didn't know those antidepressants from a friend, did you?" At first I only stare at Jake through the screen of my phone. The memory rushing back to my brain: when we found the receipt for supposedly Hannah's pills and made that bet. How Jake asked me in a calm moment how I knew it that fast. Especially because he saw I didn't go offline and instantly texted him that I knew what these meds were. How I didn't want him to know and said that I had a friend who took them. "I-" "Please don't lie to me now, MC." For a moment I advert my eyes. "I'm sorry", I whisper with now closed eyes and take a deep breath. Picking up the sound of him sighing gently I find the courage to look at him again. "MC, if you ever want to talk or some company or... I don't know... just tell me, okay? I don't know that much about it but... I really want to be there for you." Even if I can't hear his actual voice, I still recognize how his words are laced with worry and care. The realization of that brings a small smile on my face. Eventually I nod. "Okay. Thank you, Jake."

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Hello, hello! I am back!
And I'm seriously sorry that it took me so long to write this. :/

To be honest, I started writing it, got stuck pretty quick. Then did some more research, deleted everything and started over and eventually got stuck again. This one was really some kind of challenge for me. Especially because I never really was satisfied with my work. And actually I'm not quite sure if this description of everything really hit the nail on the head...

Yet, I'm very thankful @KhushiGupta886864 for sending me this request! I really really hope it turned out okay.

So, next one is basically in progress now that I finished this one.

See ya soon, my dear peeps!