Hello, Goodbye

part 8

I sat on the doctors table, shaking from the nerves. My dad told me when we arived that they were going to see if I had anorexia or if my major weight loss was due to something else. My dad forced me onto the scales this morning and I'd lost 30lbs. I was only 90lbs at age 16. Thats like a ten year olds weight...

The doctor finnaly walked in and introduced himself. I didn't say anything. Just played with my fingers. "Have you ate anything today Maddie?" The doctor asked while sitting on the stool next to me. I shook my head. "Uh I tried to get her to eat but she wouldn't.." my dad spoke up.

I watched as the doctor wrote down on the sheet of paper. "Do you often refuse to eat Maddison? I need you to answer truthfully." He asked. I nodded my head still not creating eye contact. "Okay.. when was the last time you ate?"

I tried to think but honestly could not remember. The days keep merging. "I don't know.. I can't remember.." I half whispered.

"Okay... Mr Hill can I talk to you outside please." The doctor spoke while opening the door for my dad. Great. Its never good if the doctor had to take your parent out the room to talk.

A few minutes passed and they walked back in, "Maddison do you want to get better? Do you think you want to be a healthy weight again?" The doctor sat back down.

"No. That's a polite way of saying fat. I want to be skinny. I need to be skinny." I mumbled. The room was silent for a moment before my dad walked over and placed a hand on my back, "Buttercup.. if you don't eat they'll have to feed you through a tube.. Will you please try the meal plans?" My dad asked while trying to comfort me.

I didn't want any of this. I want to stay on the diet my mum set me. "I want to stay on the diet! If you won't let me stay on the diet then I'll call mum and she'll take me back to Washington! She understands! Beauty is pain! No one understands that! I don't care what it does to me I want to be skinny!" I yelled at both of them as I got up and began walking out of the hospital when suddenly I felt 2 doctors grabbing my arms, stopping me from leaving.

"LET ME GO!!! LET ME GO!!! YOUR HURTING ME!!!" I screamed as they pulled me into a room and injected me with something. Next I know I had passed out.

*Sam's pov*

It was the end of the day and Maddie never showed up for school. I was walking home and checked my phone to see I had a message from her.

Maddie:
Hello Samuel, this is Scott. Maddie was put into the hospital after the visit to the doctors.

My heart skipped a beat when I read what her dad had messaged. She was put in hospital?! I knew she was going to the doctors but what the fuck! I made a quick detour towards the hospital and messaged my mum I was going to visit maddie.

It was an hour and a half walk to the hospital but I knew it would be worth it. I messaged her not sure if maddie or her dad would reply.

You:
Hey what room number is
It? I'm in the waiting room

Maddie:
103, she's asleep still but you
Can come up.

I arived at the room 2 minutes later and saw her with tubes coming in and out of her. I only now realised just how sick she looks. I took 3 steps closer.

"Is she okay..." I mumbled, not taking my eyes off her.. she looked so... tired..

"She refused to eat anything then when we said she'd have to be tube fed she tried to run out the hospital resulting in them having to make her pass out by injecting her with something that's too long for me to pronounce then they put the tubes in her... so if she sounds okay to you then yeah.." Mr Hills tried to lighten the spirit with his weird joke which didn't work what so ever.

"When will she wake up?" I asked finnaly looking away from Maddison. "They don't know, they guessed about 4 hours so you might aswell go home.. its almost 5pm already.. I'll get her to message you when she's up." He mumbled while staring at his daughter.

"No. I'll just call my parents and tell them I'll be later then I Thought.... I was the one who put the letter in your mail box... Jack was threatening to tell you about her eating disorder and he was treating her horribly so I thought if I told you then she can break up with him and she'll be okay... I just didn't realise how bad she was.." I mumbled while slouching on a chair in the room.

"Im glad Maddie has a friend like you.." Her dad let out a long sigh while rubbing his forehead. He looked so stressed out. "Is there something you not telling me?" I asked knowing that he hadn't told me something.

"The hospital called her mum and now she's taking me to court so she can take Maddie away from me." He groaned. What? Take her away? But she just got here! She can't take her away! We're getting closer! I can't loose her again!

So many emotions ran through my head. Rage. Confusion. Guilt. Sorrow. Regret. This is all my fault. If I hadn't told her dad none of this would've happened. Fuck maddies going to be so pissed when she finds out!

"Please don't tell Maddie I was the one who told you! She'll hate me!" I looked from her dad to her.
Even when looking sick and tired she looked beautiful.

"You're in love with her aren't you.." her dad suddenly spoke. I lifted my head to look at him.

"What?- What makes you think that?" I asked, I don't know how he figured it out but he was right.
"If you are do me a favour and tell her. She's pissed at me and said she will move to Washington as her mum encourages her not to eat... chances are in court if the judge asks her where she'd like to say she will say with her mum..  so do me a favour... tell her. If she knows you love her or if you start dating I know she'll stay here. So please. Tell her as soon as possible." He stood up and left the room, leaving me with my thoughts.

she cant like me back.. but what if she does... adults can usually tell easier so what if I've just been oblivious and.. and she does like me. I'll tell her when she's out of the hospital... whenever that is..
Its worth giving it a chance if it means she might stay.

I sat there for the next 2 hours talking with her dad while watching her. The doctor was in the room talking to her dad while I sat there watching her. I couldn't help it. I knew it was creepy. But she's just so gorgeous. That's when I saw her eyes flutter open. I sat up suddenly. Did I imagine it?! No! Surely not! That's when she fully opened her eyes and I darted towards her bed.

She looked at me confused. "Maddie! Your awake! Thank god! You scared me!" I grinned while hugging her. She laughed slightly and hugged me back but soon realised she was restricted by the tubes. I saw the panic in her eyes as she tugged on them.

"No! No! Maddie please don't!" The doctor quickly rushed over and pulled her hands away from her face. She began trying to fight him off so I quickly held her hands down too.

"Maddison please stop! You need to keep them in!" The doctor barked at her as she tried to fight us off. "Maddison if you don't stop we'll have to put you to sleep again or you'll choke!" The doctor yelled over her grunts.

She softened her movements after hearing what the doctor said. After a few moments we removed our grips, ready to stop her still if she tried to pull them out but she didn't.

She just let out a sob I watched as her dad tried to hug her but she pushed him away, "GET AWAY FROM ME! YOU PUT ME HERE! I WANT TO GO HOME!" She screamed suddenly. Instinctively I pulled her into my arms. She rested her head against my chest and began sobbing again. I wanted to help her but I couldn't. All I could do was let her cry it out and try and cheer her up.