Hello, Goodbye

part 12

You all began to walk out the aisle with Jessica infront, you behind her and Sam following a fee step behind. Suddenly I felt someone grope me again and knew it wasn't Sam as he wouldn't do that without my permission. I turned my head to see the creep again, smiling at me.

Before I could say or do anything Samuel had grabbed him by his collar, "do that again I'll cut your fucking hand off. Got it?" He threatened, Not releasing his grip.
"Samuel! Stop it! Let him go!" Mrs Johnson yelled from the row behind.

He looked at me and I nodded my head praying he'd let him go. He began walking over to me "Come on let's go.." I mumbled.

"Its fine she's fat and ugly anyway!" The guy called out from behind. Before I could react Sam turned round and punched him in the face, blood immediately spewed out of the guys nose but Sam started walking back.

"Sorry... are you okay? Please don't listen to that guy he's wrong.." Sam whispers while wrapping an arm round me. "Your gonna get kicked off the team!" I shouted as I watched people begin to fuss over the guy who was covered in blood.

"Oh well..." he mumbled while beggining to walk with his arm snaked round my lower waist.

We all left and went back to the houses. Sam had to get in the shower so I waited in my room for him to go into his bedroom and to be fully dressed. I climbed onto the tree inbetween our houses before climbing onto his window and opening it.

"Hey!" I chimed as he helped me into his room. "Long time no see!" He chuckled making me giggle while smashing my lips onto his, "how you feeling after all that's happened today?" He asked while pulling me by my waist closer so our bodies were touching.

"Mostly happy apart from that guy at the game.." I mumbled while leaning up to placed multiple kisses on his jawline, "I would've happily kept punching him untill he blacked out if Jessica wasn't with us.." he smirked while lifting me up and wrapping my legs round his waist.

"Did I tell you how beautiful you look today?" He smiled while sitting us both down on the bed, me straddling his lap. As our tongues fought for dominance I began moving back and forwards making a small moan slip out of Sam's lips, "No love, stop... we can't... your making me horny.." he groaned.

I pouted at him before climbing off his lap and sitting on his bed next to him, I watched as he grabbed a pillow and put it ontop of his lap, "now look what you've done to me!" He hissed jokingly making me smirk to myself.

Suddenly I heard my dad call out my name and looked out the window to see my dad looking round my room, "I'm here!" I replied while standing at Samuel's window.

"Oh great! I was about to say that the johnsons have invited us round for drinks, do you want anything from your room before I lock up the house?" He asked while leaning against the window sill.

"Not right now, just shut my window and font lock it so if I need anything I can grab it!" I grinned while walking back over to Sam's bed.

Once Sam's.... problem... had gone we went downstairs to join all the others who were sat at the breakfast bar all drinking.

"Alright let's make a toast now your all down! Here you both can have some champagne!" Mrs Johnson announced while handing us a glass each.

"To Maddie staying in florida and Samuel winning the game! Oh and Maddies recovery!" Mr Johnson toasted, my face sunk almost immediately. I wasn't recovering. I don't want to get fat. I've forced myself to be sick after almost every meal since I got back. It may be easy to gain the weight but it's not easy to get out that mind set.

"Oh yes! Can't forget Maddies recovery! We're all so proud!" My dad continued while pulling me in from the side to hug me. They all think I'm better just like that..

I felt tears fill my eyes but tried to smile though it, my dad let me go and I buried my face into Sam's chest in an attempt to hide my face, it's only when I pulled away and he noticed his T-shirt was wet from tears that he pulled me out to the lounge and the parents went silent and stopped laughing.

"Hey.. you alright?" He asked while sitting me down. I nodded my head while avoiding eye contact. "I won't tell anyone... it's okay.. talk to me..." he tried to convince me but I knew the parents could hear us all.

"Can we go up to your room? I don't want everyone hearing" I mumbled. I felt him grab my hand and lead me up the stairs to his room, "alright come on talk to me... your scaring me..." he spoke soothingly.

"I... uhm.. well I..." I felt a solitary tear roll down my face, "I'm sorry!" I choked on my words as I wiped away my tears, "you have nothing to be sorry about but please tell me what's wrong.." he tucked a piece of hair behind my ear and wiped away the tears that continued to fall.

"Uhm... I'm not recovering.... I'm eating but making sure I don't gain any of the weight..." I whispered to ensure no one heard me. "And I'm not working out..." I continued my sentence making him furrow his eyes.

"Wait so.... how? I'm confused..." he questioned while getting closer to me on the bed. "I can't tell you.. you'll try to stop me.." I replied while getting up from the bed and trying to walk out.

"Just because your done doesn't mean I am!" He grabbed me by my waist and pulled me back untill our bodies were touching.
"Please tell me... then I can help you..." he pleaded me but I just shook my head, "I dont want help. Last time I got help I gained 10 pounds! 10 pounds Samuel! I'm fat! Don't you get it? You won't love me if I get fat!" I let out a sob and fell to the floor, I felt Sam wrap his arms round me.

"I'd love you no matter what size you are... in my eyes you'll always be beautiful... I want to help you get to a healthy weight... I can and will fight off anyone who has something to say about it. Please... please let me help you... if you tell me... I'll help you... I won't tell anyone." He begged over and over again untill I caved in just to get him to be quiet, "I- uhm... I force myself to throw up after I eat.." I explained.

I watched as Sam's face sunk. Oh god. He's Dissapointed in me..
"Are you mad at me?" I whispered trying to hold back the tears that threaten to fall. "What?! No! I'm not mad at you! I'm upset.. not with you I'm just upset that you feel like you have to do all this.." Sam offered a soft smile to me which I returned.

"Hold on I'll be right back.." the boy mumbled while walking out of his room. He came back with a breakfast bar and handed it to me. "Please can you eat this?" He asked while sitting down. Naturally I went to look at the back of the packet to see how many calories are in it but he had scribbled it out... it was annoying but for some reason it made my heart feel warm, the fact he knew to scribble it out.

I unwrapped it and stared at it for a moment trying to convince myself to eat it. I took in a deep breath before biting into it. I slowly took began to chew untill I had swallowed it.

I couldn't eat anymore though. I knew he was about to tell me I can't go thow up now. I put it back in the wrapper and put it down on the bed. "Whats wrong?" He questioned while picking it back up.

"I can't eat anymore... I'm full..." I lied as he took it out the packet and broke it in half, "Please... I'll eat half and you'll eat half.." he pleaded again while offering it to me. I took the smaller piece from his hand and slowly took another bite as he began eating it too.

I eventually finnished the rest of it and got up to go to the bathroom but felt Sam grab my wrist, "sit back down. Your not going to the bathroom for the next hour." He instructed while pulling me down onto his bed again, "What? But- I- no- what?!? Are you serious? What if I actually need to go to the toilet though!" I spat back at him whike crossing my arms.

"Then you'll have to hold it. You need to let your body process the food its not getting enough and if it gets bad I'll have to tell your dad agai-" he quickly stopped talking as soon as he realised.

"Again? Tell my dad again? You- you told my dad!" I shouted while getting up off the bed. "No! No! Well... yeah but I did it for a good reason! You were being blackmailed into being in a abusive relationship! I.. I just wanted to help..." Sam tried to reason as he took a step closer.

Taking a step away from him I began shaking my head, "I WAS HAPPY AS EVERYTHING WAS SAM! THATS NOT YOUR CALL TO MAKE! IF I WANTED TO END THE RELATIONSHIP I WOULD'VE! HE ONLY HIT ME ONCE IT WASNT A BIG DEAL BUT YOU HAD TO HOP IN AND BE THE HERO! I DONT NEED YOU FIGHTING MY BATTLERS FOR ME!"