Hello, Goodbye

part 13

I started to climb out the window again to get to my room with Sam following me, begging me to just stop and listen, "No I don't want to listen to you! You ruined my life! I fucking hate you right now!"

Suddenly he grabbed my wrist, I shoved him off me but must've pushed too hard as next thing I know he'd fallen. I looked down and saw his unconscious body on the path below the tree, blood flowing from his head.

I quickly climbed down from the tree and crouched down besides him, "Sam! Samuel! Can you hear me? Please wake up! I'm so sorry! I'm so sorry... I'm sorry.. please forgive me.." I sobbed into his chest. I heard the front door open and saw the parents and Jessica stood there. Almost immediately Mrs Johnson ran over and crouched down.

My dad pulled me up off the ground by my arm as I fought to get back down, "No! It's my fault! Let me help! Please! It's all my fault! He grabbed ny wrist and I tried to get him off me but I pushed to hard! If he dies its my fault!" I whispered as I sat on the floor again and sobbed.

"How quickly did he black out Maddison?" Mrs Johnson asked while applying pressure to his head. "Immediately! I looked down and he had passed out! I didn't kill him did I?!" I hid my face in my knees, rocking myself back and forth.

"No you didn't kill him, he's still breathing and there's an ambulance on the way." Mrs Johnson mumbled, not even looking at me.

"Im so sorry Mrs Johnson..." I apologised hoping she'd forgive me, "it's fine." She replied coldly.
She blames me. I know she does.
I stood up and wrapped my arms round my dad who returned the hug. I began crying into his chest.
Soon enough the ambulance arived and they took Sam away, Mrs johnsons was in the back of the ambulance with him while his dad said he'd drive up with Jessica.

I watched as they walked towards the car before Mr Johnson turned round to look at me, "Maddie do you want to come?" He questioned, I looked at my dad to see what he thought, I watched as he nodded his head before looking back towards Mr johnson, "Yes please..." I half whispered while walking towards the car and getting in.

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We've been sat in the waiting room for almost 2 hours now. I don't think Mrs Johnson will ever forgive me. She had an argument with her husband for bringing me and she didn't even try to hide that they were arguing about me. And I don't blame her. It's all my fault.

I watched as a doctor walked over to Mrs Johnson and whispered something. Suddenly she grabbed Mr johnsons free arm (he was using the other one to hold Jessica who'd fallen asleep) and began dragging him somewhere. Do I follow them? No I'll stay here..

*Sam's pov*

I slowly opened my eyes to see my mum standing over me and ny dad sat on a chair with Jessica asleep on him. Where's Maddie? I looked to the otherside but she wasn't there. "Where's Maddie?" I grumbled while slowly sitting up.

"Sam she's the one who hurt you. She pushed you off the tree." My mum began explaining as If I don't remember what happened.
"I know. But she didn't mean too. I want to see her is she here or not?" I asked getting a bit more mad then I should. I watched as my mum turned to my dad, "Richard go get Maddison.." she mumbled before turning back to me.

"How are you feeling sweetheart?" She questioned while trying to hug me regardless to me being connected to multiple machines.

A few minutes passed and I heard the familiar voice from outside, "Is he mad at me?" The voice questioned, "I'm not angry at you just get in here please!" I replied for my dad, the door slowly opened and that's when I saw her face.

"Hey.." she half whispered as she walked towards me, "Hey" I replied in a soft tone while reaching out for her hand and pulling her closer.

I noticed maddie avoiding eye contact with everyone and looked over to see my mum glaring at her, "Mum stop it. None of this was her fault so stop being petty and rude." I barked before pulling Maddie by her waist onto the bed so I would be able to hug her.

I wrapped an arm round her and took in a deep breath while pressing my lips against her temples. "Does your head hurt?" She questioned while locking our eyes, "A little, I'll be fine.." I reassured before sinking down in the bed and shutting my eyes for a moment. "Go to sleep, I'll go.." I felt her to try to stand up but I quickly stopped her.

"Dont." I grumbled and shut my eyes again. Before I knew it I had fallen asleep with Maddie by my side. I was woken up just over an hour later to see maddie getting up, "where are you going?" I asked while looking around. "My dad's here to pick me up I've got to go..." my girl spoke while leaning down and kissing my cheek.

"I'll message you later, okay?" She smiled before walking off. I looked over at everyone else who had all fallen asleep which wasn't surprising, it was very late.

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*Maddies pov*

It's been 4 days since Sam got hospitalised but he gets back out today and is going to school again. Yesterday I had to go by myself for the first time since I arived here which felt really weird without him. But I did get to catch up with Ava, hannah and Morgan though and I told them everything about me and Sam.

I decided to wear leggings and Sam's jumper that he gave me today. Sweats are all I really wear now. I've been gaining weight from the meal plans and Sam stopping me from throwing up and I've been feeling really... fat.

I quickly curled my hair and put some makeup on just in time for the doorbell to go. I grabbed all my stuff and ran down the stairs, I opened the door and was greeted by Samuel grinning at me. "Hey! You ready?" He asked while I put my shoes on. "Yup! Let's go or we'll be late." I returned the smile and shut the door as I walked out.

We began walking to school and made it there with time to spare.
We began walking through the halls and I could feel everyone staring. What's happened since yesterday? I got to my locker and Sam stood next to me looking around as everyone stared, suddenly Morgan ran over to me, "you have anorexia?!" She grabbed my shoulders so I was forced to face her.

"What?!" My jaw dropped as I looked round facing everyone. I didn't tell anyone... how did they find out. How the fuck did everyone find out. "How did you find that out?" I mumbled trying to fight back my tears.

"Megan's mum works at the hospital... she was there with her mum and heard nurses talking about you... she's told everyone.." Morgan explained. Never in my life have I wanted to be swallowed up by the floor as much as I do right now.

I looked back at Samuel who was equally as shocked and immediately buried my face into his chest as I tried to hide ny tears. "I want to go home.." I sobbed into his chest still feeling everyone's eyes glued to me.

"Your okay... it's going to be fine.. come on let's get out of here.." he mumbled while picking up my bag before wiping my tears away with his thumb.

We quickly left to start walking towards our class. The whole time people were stating and whispering. We got to maths and sat down at the back off the class.
I slouched down as the bell went and people began walking into the classroom.

Through out the lessons people would turn around and look at me before whispering stuff to their friends. As the bell for lunch time rang everyone stood up and began walking out while Sam and I waited behind to try and minimalise the amount of people staring in the halls.

We began walking to the cafeteria when suddenly I felt two hands come up from behind and push me over, "oops, sorry" Megan smirked as Sam helped me back up, "Leave her alone Megan." He barked while trying to drag me away, "awh look at all the bruises coming up already. Probably because your skin and bones. I mean you are anorexic are you not?"