Honey Lake v.s. Thunder

Chapter 14 - Update

Chapter 14 - Update

Its been almost three weeks since I was kidnapped. My parents were probably still on their trip since they didn't notice my dissapperance or Lavina told them some lie and I knew Lavina didn't care one bit. I probably have a stack of homework just waiting for at home. Home? That word sounds so foreign to me. I don't know where I can call a home or my home. Doesn't home mean, a place where you feel....safe? a place you can call a sanctuary? a place where you are happy? Well if it means all those things, then my home is at the beach. That was always the place I could go to when I needed time to think, time to be me and time to feel relaxed. This unknown place I was kidnapped to, made me different. I know I have changed and I don't know if it's a change in a good or bad way.

I spent about a week just mourning about Deven and wondering if I'll ever be free again. I usually spent my days in this strange room with Cayle. I felt like I was in prison because I couldn't come out of the room, they would supply me food--only me. Not for Cayle. But, that didn't stop me from giving her some food. I usually let her eat it all. I haven't eaten more than a bite of bread and a sip of water each day because I felt hollow and weak inside. I think I might of lost about ten pounds already. I kept trying to get in touch with Skyler, Alex, Carter, Preston and Blaze but, they either ignored my calls or would answer and then immediately hang up. I don't know why they were acting like that. I mean I never did anything wrong and for goodness sake I was freaking kidnapped and I'm being held hostage! Though they kept ignoring my calls, every time I'd try to call them. Though there was one person I haven't spoken to since the day I was in that van. Deven.

I winced at the thought of his name. The pain that constricts in my chest makes it unbearable for me to think about him for just a second. But, I knew I had to face the truth. I meant nothing to him and he means nothing to me.

Lies! He means EVERYTHING to you!  A tiny voice in the back of my head yelled.

I shook my head to ignore the voice. After that week of shedding tears and feeling hopeless, I ran out of tears and now I was just empty and showed no emotion. At night I knew that someone always tried to touch me in inappropriate places but, I knew Cayle would stop them. At first I didn't know it was her until I heard her grunt at each slap or punch they would throw at her. I know I couldn't help her and when I tried, I would get hit and slapped just as hard. After that happened to me, she made me promise her not to ever interfere again. It hurt me more to see her get hurt just to protect me. But, I was also confused on why she would risk getting beaten up just for me. For my time being here me and Cayle got close since we shared a room together and she was the only one I felt like I could trust here. We would talk to eachother like we knew eachother since we were in diapers or something. Though we weren't in a good situation since we were stuck with the Thunder Delinquents, she always made the best of things, trying to make me laugh and what not.

I knew that if I ever escaped here, that I wouldn't be able to leave her behind. She was my first friend that wasn't a guy and she was actually nice to me. Since I've been here I didn't have much clothes, only the ones I was kidnapped in and extra clothes I kept in my school purse. So, Cayle tried to led me some of her clothes but since she's much skinner than me and that her clothes are too tight for her, I couldn't use it. I had to settle with wearing Alec's clothes. He wasn't here often But, I found out that this was the guest room--or so he says. Every time Alec comes in the room I noticed that Cayle would shrink and go to the corner and stare at him like he was a murder. I didn't understand why she did that and when I tried asking here she would just stare at me with a blank -- scared look. I haven't seen that Jason guy since the day I was kidnapped too. But, something tells me he's the one that would come into the room at night.