[Discontinued] Secrets (beeduo highschool au)

A/n (Inspiration)

Hello peoples! Its been a little bit since I've last uploaded, *checks last chapter* somewhere around a week maybe? Well, past that, I wanted to put a you could say 'filler chapter' or just something before I upload chapter 20.

I just started my vacation 3 days ago so I don't have too much time to write. With mental health, vacation, and the news about Technoblade it might be around another week. Anyways, here is the main reason I'm here......

Some people ask me what I want to be when I grow up. When I was a little 5 year old I allways said I wanted to be a Rockstar, just because I guess. When I got around the age of 7 I really wanted to be a vet. When I got to the age of 11 I started playing instruments like clarinet and oboe. My mom wanted me to do something in music then. During those times I found more about myself and who I really want to be. 

Ever since I was young I would watch YouTube. My favorite was minecraft and I would allways imagine myself being someone like that when I was playing my video games. Later, my friend/neighbor made a YouTube channel and I was in a lot of his. Even though I was a weird 8 year old in those videos, I thought it was really cool.

Later, I got banned from YouTube and didn't go on anything like that for years, until I found ways to push around this parental controls and watch it again. That's when I found other websites like Webtoon, Wattpad, and ao3, and that's about where I am now. 

When someone asks me what I want to be when I grow up I really want to say, "I want to be in a band and travel the world!" Or "I want to have a streamer/youtuber and have thousands of fans wanting to see me." But I know if I say that, people would make fun of me. I've recently realized that my family is pretty toxic and isn't fun to be around, so I can't be myself. 

If I ever get to be who I really want to be, and people ask me for any inspiration I would tell them one thing, "Technoblade. He allways had a positive attitude about his life and he was lucky enough to have good friends and fans. If I become anything like that, I would look up to him and try to get newer and older fans to never forget about him. 

"Technoblade never dies!" I hope people in the future will still watch his old videos and think that he was a funny guy, because he was. He put the inspiration in me to try to follow my dreams, whatever they shall be, and be positive about life.