Life's not Easy

Winterwonderland

It was four in the morning when I had a big stomach cramp that wouldn't hold me up, I had to go to the bathroom to pour out my intestines, it must have been something I ate, I thought, but I wasn't sure

The next day I woke up with some chills and with my face redder than a sea lobster
I had jumps and my whole body fell asleep
"What is happening to me"
I fainted about three times, and I was not aware of what was happening to me
Did I drink too much the night I went out with Liam to Winterwonderland?

I went to the hospital with my mother Anadulce and my father Jessie, they were the only ones who were at my house in the morning
So I went to the hospital with courage and fear at the same time
who knows what life would bring me

"You have cancer (Y/n) I'm sorry to say it, and sink you but you're going to have to take some medications and do intensive therapy, no excesses, no parties, or well you can go out but without overloading yourself and above all a lot of rest and eat fiber and protein...
sorry about the news
the doctor said"

but I was sorry for Liam and for the boys or myself
I didn't even know that my life was going to change so suddenly

I felt devastated, I wish I could not have gone through this, I hope or I expected him to tell me diarrhea or hangover the other day.

when we got home... i ran to my room crying my eyes out... i got a call from my mom and ruth (Li's sister)

(cursive letters characters of the story)
"Honey, are you ok?"

(black and big letters Y/n)

"No, no mom, I'm not fine, I'm too young, and this is torture and punishment for going out with Liam, I'm sure..."

between sobs I was thinking about Liam, how to tell him that his girlfriend was a cancer patient, that he had fallen in love with something uncertain and sick
I was ashamed of how he would take it from destroying it to pieces, he was so good to me, so sweet, attentive and affectionate that it seemed unbelievable that he was with me

Liam is calling me
try to compose myself before talking to him
I had to work up the courage to tell him, I had to be brave, I couldn't live in a lie, I didn't want to hurt him, quite distant I've been quite distant with him the whole last month we've been together, I'm sure he's weighing whether he might cheat on him, or that I no longer loved him

"Honey, you're fine, you haven't looked at me or smiled at me for a long time, I don't know"
"Something bad has happened"

(Y/n):
"Li... Liam, honey, I'm sorry I was like this with you, I didn't mean to hurt you"

I had a hoarse voice
and somewhat loaded from so much crying but I wanted to tell him in person

I better tell you in person or do you want me to tell you here?

"I hear you" he said

"Today... I went to the... hospital, yesterday I felt bad, and... I decided to go to the hospital and..."

Everything was shaking, how can I tell you, I had a lump in my throat....

"I'm getting sick" i said weak

***There was an awkward silence on the other side of the phone, and I thought I heard Liam crying loudly on the other side of the phone, I knew it was better to tell him in person but I didn't want to force things further, or make him suffer***

the distance was now killing and torturous

life was very sad to live like this, I could be with one foot in the grave in a matter of seconds
everything was cloudy
everything trembled
I wanted to hug him I wanted to be with him and tell him that everything was fine, that everything would be fine, but why fool us, he was screwed up, between mental health, and physical health, he had done yoga he had eaten healthy, but that took its toll on health Mentally, I had suicidal thoughts
but thanks to him I'm still alive