Life smells like death

Chapter 7

"What do you mean you kicked him out!?"

"Hey, hey don't stress over it so much. You just got out of surgery and got a blood transfusion. Be careful. Also Jisung's with him, they should be okay."

"Okay, I don't doubt Jisung's ability to take care of him- but why did you make him leave."

"Felix. You needed blood and he wouldn't give you his. Do you understand!? How fucking self-"

"You should thank God he did not give me his blood!"

"Exactly- what?"

"What?"

"Felix... what did you just say? Why should we be grateful he did not give you his blood?"

"Um... he- he uh-"

"Speak up!"

"Chan hyung... you- you know his health history. It would be dangerous."

"Why do I think there's more into that?"

"No! No, there's not."

"Umm... by any chance did someone find my bag?"

"Yeah, they have it in the closet. Do you need me to bring you anything?"

"No..."

"How did it even happen do you remember anything?"

"Ah yeah Jeongin I do. It was my fault really. I was walking way too fast because I was angry, I was crossing the road but I didn't double check and then bam! But thankfully the driver stopped and the rest is history."

"What made you so angry that you put your health in danger?"

"I needed to get painkillers!"

"Really, Felix. You want us to believe you almost died for painkillers?"

"Very strong painkillers Minho hyung!"

"As if that makes it any different!"

"They were needed Binnie!"

"By whom?"

"Jisung!"

"Mhmh..."

"What I'm saying the truth!"

"Guys, we are back and I don't care about you at all, outside is freezing and if you don't want Hyunjin in there, just go outside- Oh Felix!! You're awake thank God! See Hyunnie? I told you he'll be fine."

"Hyunjin are you okay?"

"I- I should b-be a-asking y-you th-at. A-re you fe-feeling b-better?"

"Oh Jinnie... I am."

"Do we bother you? Should we leave?"

"Oh shut it Changbin!"

"But Seungmin-"

"Let them have their moment!"

"So Jisung... you had a migraine."

"I had?" Jisung's eyes met with Felix's

"Oh yeah... I had. I'm okay now though! Don't worry! I'm healed!"

"And Felix went out... to get you painkillers and the he was hit by a car."

"Oh yeah..."

"So won't you apologize?"

As the words left Minho's and Chan's mouth Hyunjin felt smaller and smaller, more and more guilty.

"I- I am truly very-"

And he broke. He fell on his knees and begged Felix for forgiveness.

"I-I am s-so sor-sorry F-felix. Y-you- you g-got hurt becau-se of me- me. It- it should h-have been m-me. I am s-sorry f-for b-being s-so sel-selfish a-and no-not giving yo-you my, my b-blood. I- I didn't w-want to- to make you m-more s-sick. I- I'm sorry I- I made y-you so angry you had to leave because I'm s-so w-weak. I- I'm sorry i- y-you got hurt. I- I'm s-sorry I- I alm-almost k-killed you. O-oh God i- I'm s-so f-fuckin-g s-sorry."

"Oh God no! No, no, no, no! Hyunnie. Please get up!"

"I-I'm sorry..."

Jisung was holding him in his arms and he cried and stuttered.

"Hyunjin? Hyunjin look at me." Felix demanded.

"This is my own fault! Please, please, please, please. Do not blame yourself for something that truly is my own and only fault. Nothing could prevent what happened except myself carefully checking the road. I know things are hard for you this time... and- and I shouldn't have been that angry! I love you so much Hyunnie. I just want you to be healthy again."

"I- I a-am s-still s-so sorry Felix..."

"What the heck is going on!?"

"Nothing Chan hyung-"

"If that's nothing then... how's something!?"

"Hyunjin just had a fight with Felix."

"And why are you two the only ones informed about it?" Minho exclaimed

"It's- it's b-because that fight was my fault... we fought because of me... I- I have c-cancer..."
Hyunjin said with such a quiet voice, even Jisung barely heard him.

"Hyunjin? What did you say?"

"Chan hyung... it's-"

"No it's okay Jisung I'll s-say it.

I have cancer... again."

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Author: I hope you have a nice day/night!

I swear I'll update sooner this time.

I'm on vacation with my friends and this is actually the first time in three years I'm swimming, because of covid and my poor health, and it feels so good! We are in Austria and the lakes here! Oh my! This is better than any beach I've ever went for a swim.