I used to cover the mirrors in the dark when I was young
Not because I was afraid of myself
But I was afraid of what might be lurking in the corners
The hideous monsters that would escape the shadows of my room
Crawling into the glass to jump out at me
It's seemed we flipped the script
Now I don't cover the glass
Because I can't bear to let go.
In the mornings
I stumble across the cold, harsh floor
Make my way to the aging mirror
And stare till my eyes are aching and sore
Her devastating flaws stand out like a sore thumb
You can't look away from a train wreck
No matter how gruesome
No matter how heartbreaking.
People say I'm my parents child
That with one look, you can tell I'm my father's daughter
The glass girl stands before me
She doesn't see the similarities
Calls me a black sheep who can never compare
I run my fingers across my skin and try to find something real
My mother is so beautiful
My mother says she needs to lose weight
They say I look just like my mother.
Sometimes the world gets too heavy
And my shoulders sag under the weight
In the cramped room
I try to find safety and privacy
But the glass girl is waiting for me
Cries ring out
My knuckles are ghostly white
The water runs, static on my ears
I hope it's loud enough to muffle the screams that come from the small space
When I face the glass girl
The fear is so loud
I've been told it's ok to be afraid, it's ok to miss the past
But I hate the nights I spend on the floor avoiding her gaze
She'll always be here with me
One day, I fear I'll fall right into the mirror
And no one will notice the difference.
I should cover the mirrors
The glass girl and I should take a break
She terrifies me, because I can't tell fiction from reality
The glass girl and I will never get along
So I'll try to cover my mirrors
And leave her there.
