The Butterfly Effect

Chapter 14

Nova
Journal ~

Fear, that overwhelming feeling, that pit in your stomach consuming you it's sometimes short lived but this type was never ending, perpetual. It haunted you, made me wonder was it only just my mind being put against me? fear can't hurt me but a person can and their actions could only last minutes but fear, fear lasts forever.

I wake up not being able to move, something was stopping me. I soon realized it was Dai who was holding me tightly in his arms. The events of last night flood through my memory and my eyes begin to water. I felt so drained like I cried so much I didn't have any more tears to cry I felt numb.

I lean into his embrace, his scent confronting me. He felt like my new safe place. His skin was so soft and warm. Wait, where's his shirt? He had one last night. I guess he took it off. I'm not complaining though it was nice his chest felt strong but comfortable.

I look up at his face it was beautiful. I reach up and touched his chin. His features were perfect. His lips were plump and pink I can't believe I was lucky enough to kissed them. His little nose was so cute it was a little red from sleeping, he even had a few light freckles that you could only see if you looked close enough, he looked so peaceful.

His hair was a mess but he was still able to pull it off. I reach my hand up and touch it. His hair was so soft and fluffy. I play in it some more before he stops me.

"Good morning to you too."he chuckles, his morning voice deep and almond shaped eyes wrinkling at that ends from smiling.

"Good morning."

I smile as he pushes my hair out of my face. I know good and well my hair was a hot mess and I cannot pull it off like he did because I'm black.

"How do you feel?"

I take a moment to think, should I tell him how I'm really feeling? Or would he not understand and just dismiss me. I'm not used to putting deep emotions out like that. Too afraid of being misunderstood.

"It's okay you can tell me how you really feel. I know yesterday was a lot for you." He reassures me

It's almost as if this man had telepathy; he understands me without me even saying anything.

"To be completely honest I feel numb this whole situation felt like Deja vu, I've never told anyone this before not even my closes friends, but the reason why I stutter is because I was kidnapped when I was five. He threatened to kill me if I even mumbled a word, I was a mute for over eight years and when I regained my courage to speak, I stuttered uncontrollably."

"I had no idea, is that why you don't want anyone to know about last night?"

I nod slowly, "If my parents find out, it would break them all over again. I'm still am in shock of everything that happened myself."

"You say something eventually, I mean he needs to pay for what he did."

"Yeah I know but for now, I want to stay in denial for a little bit longer."

"Okay," he nods and smile but in I nod but in the back of my mind i knew I never planed on saying anything. I was too afraid to even speak his name.

"I got your car last night while you were asleep, it's in the garage."

I nod remembering my car was left there last night. Then I remember my phone. I get up from his embrace and look at him in panic.

"What's wrong?" He asks, confused.

"My phone is still in the car."

"Oh don't worry I got it, it's on the nightstand." He says reaching over to the night stand grabbing my phone.