The Butterfly Effect

Chapter 18

Nova

I take a bite of the omelet. It was good but not as good as Dai's. I miss him and his omelette making ass. Being apart from him for this long felt like with drawls. I felt nauseous and I wanted to cry I couldn't even finish my food. Could i really make it in boarding school?

There's a hole that only he could fill when he was around. And when he wasn't here it felt like the hole got bigger and bigger.

I get up taking mines and my parents plates to the sink my plate still having a omelette on it and clean up my mess. Cleaning is a easy way for me to get my mind off things because I get to just focus on getting everything back to how it's supposed to be.

Once I finished I go up to my room and lay down I felt extremely exhausted from not getting any sleep but my brain just wouldn't let me go. I sigh getting back up and deciding to take a shower.

It was now 8:00 and Daisuke said he was going to come get me. And I was starting to get sad because what if he cancels on me. Is he starting to get tired of me already? Was I too clingy yesterday? Just as I'm about to get in the shower my phone dings.

Dai: Hey, I'll be there around 10 to pick you up.

I let out a sigh of relief that I didn't even realize I was holding in. I text back "okay" and get in the shower. It felt weird to even touch my body after what happened. I still had the scars on my wrist and ankles. My body felt like a shell holding my soul is didn't feel like it was completely my own anymore.

Once I finished taking my shower, I looked for an outfit to wear. But I was torn on what to wear. Is this like a date, should I dress up? I can't text him and ask him if this was a date either because that would be awkward if he said no.

I'll just wear something cute but casual so it doesn't look like I'm trying too hard.

I put on some dark green cargo pants and topped it with a black lace crop top.

I style my hair in a curly Afro, letting it hang down to my shoulders In its naturally curly state. I check the time to see it was 10:30, and Daisuke wasn't even here. He said he would be here by nine what's the hold up? I hope he's okay. I texted him and asked him if he was on his way and he didn't reply. A hour quickly turns into three hours .

My mind starts to spiral with all the possible things that could have happened. He might be annoyed with me because of how clingy I am, Amir cold have hurt him because he saved me, he could be dead.Then my breathing starts to get irregular and my eyes start to tear up.

Oh no not again, this wasn't as bad as the first one this time I could breathe but I just couldn't stop hyperventilating I felt the air go to my lungs but it felt like my chest was shaking bringing the air back out.

I try to calm down by grounding myself leaning over the counter looking at my hands. I count backwards from 100 and my breathing starts to calm down. This was something my mom taught me to do whenever I got really mad or anxious. It was a helpful trick to calm down.

I wipe the tears from my eyes and fix my hair pulling it out of my face. And look at myself in the mirror.
"It's fine everything is going to be okay." I say to myself.

But I wasn't convinced because soon after I started crying. The burning pit in my throat as I held In my cry's consumed me. The tears met my tongue creating a familiar salty taste. Why do I have to be so broken? What did I do to deserve this? I try to think everything happens for a reason. But Was this a sick game god was playing?

After almost four more hours of me crying and fighting my sleep waiting for his text, My phone finally dings, bringing me out of my thoughts and I check to see a text from Daisuke.