HER REVENGE

Chapter one

"Clarissa? "God that name , only one person in this god forsaken place knows me by that name and it's my psychiatrist; Dr. Sofia Denzo.

     " Yes Sofia?" I replied making sure to put emphasis on her name . I hear a sigh from her making me know she's annoyed ,mental smirk, I knew she hated it when i called her that but she also knew i hated it when people call me by my full name .

      "I don't know if you were hearing me but i was just saying how much improvement you've made since you first came here ," at that my interests peeked maybe if i was on my good behavior they would let me out next year when I'm 18 and I can go out and start a life on my own .

           " Yeah I know , so does that mean I'll be getting released next year?" I asked with a wide smile on my face hopes high , this is it this is my chance . At that she laughs, ok now I'm confused,

               " Oh sorry dear I'm sorry it's just you're not gettimg released next year -"

        " Oh," i should've known better.

      " No not like that , you won't be released next year because you're getting released tomorrow and your mom is gonna pick you u-"

Did she just ?
" Wait what? I'm getting released ? Tomorrow? But I'm not 18 , I'm not legally an adult which means - No "

        " Clarissa just li-"

    " No , no , I'm not going back there not with them," I spat , I can't go back there , I don't want to see them again , I can't, not after what they did. No I won't do it .

" Clarissa Lauren Crawford! You need to listen , you will be fine , you will go back there and show them that you aren't the small fragile 14 year old they bought here anymore, you've changed, you're better. If anything go back be happy and show them that they didn't break you. I know they hurt you , i don't know how but don't let them keep you captive forever, you can-"
"13"
"What?" She stops mid sentence to look at me in confusion at what i said ,
" Well you said i should go back and show them that I'm not that weak fragile 14 year old they left here , but truthfully I was 13 not 14 , they lied ," at this she looks at me concerned and then at her clipboard , she skips through a few papers before finally stopping at one and looking at it then back at me with wide eyes .
" Oh my god Clary , I didn't know I thought -"
" Yeah it doesn't matter anymore ," I tell her rolling my eyes . I take a deep breath close my eyes and re open them before smiling at her .
" I'll do it ," I say to her despite the small voice in the back of my head screaming no .
At my response she smiles widely and moves from her chair to the sofa that I'm sitting on to hug me . I hug her back and reminisce in her arms .
After a while we both pull away and she goes back to her position on the chair, clearing her throat she fixes her glasses on her nose bridge .
" Well since that part is covered , I just want you to know our sessions don't end even though you're leaving we still have to meet every Saturday at 1 , and your medications must be taken after every meal and your night medication every night , it'll help you sleep . Also if after a week there and you're a still good then you'll be able to start school again ," she says all that smiling .
" Yeah great , so excited ," I reply my words dripping with sarcasm.
I sit up in the sofa and clear my throat , " So um Doc is that all? Kinda don't want to miss Lunch , it's pizza day ," I tell her the lies dripping from my tongue, well it is lunch time just that I don't eat , well i do just not as much as i should and if I over eat i tend to have this need to push my finger down my throat to bring it all back up .
Dr. Denzo seemed to believe my lies because she smiled and nod at the door , and with that i stand and walk through the door and down the hall , finally allowing myself to think , I'm going back . I'm going to see them again, I'm going to have to pretend all over again not like that's a problem I mean I've been pretending ever since i came here . Oh yeah , I haven't told you yet , I'm Clarissa Lauren Crawford a 17 year old girl stuck in a psychiatric hospital, yup I'm one of the crazy , kidding I'm perfectly sane just some fucked up family drama got me here . And I've been here for 4 years now . And well now I'm leaving tomorrow, so not looking forward to it .
I mean my family as they call it is just a bunch of people i share the same DNA with , we are in no way a family. I mean they never once treated me like their own , well other than Joshua , my older brother , he was the only family I had , well i said had not that he died or anything just that we stopped communicating 3 years ago . We use to write each other letters telling how life is since his parents didn't want him or anyone for that matter to visit me. So the only way we could talk was by writing , he'd send me gifts and tell me jokes and about his day, i enjoyed it but 3 years ago he stopped sending letters , no matter how much I wrote to him I got no response from him whatsoever, I figured since he's in highschool he probably has a lot going on so that's why he stopped. Well that's what i kept telling myself . Joshua isn't like them , he's different, he loves me .
" Oie Red! Wait up" , I stop in my tracks as I've reached the cafeteria where my roommate Lily called out to me .
" What do you want Lily ?" I ask her annoyed , yeah we aren't that good of friends , truth be told I don't like her nor anyone else here other than my Doc and this really sweet old lady who used to come by and give me clothes but she stopped last year when she died .
" Jeez someone's cranky , but anyways guess what I've got,"
" A better hiding spot for your cigars?"
" What no , wait how'd you know about that?" She asks surprised
" We share a room , and the stench of burned cigars in the bathroom covered by air freshener is still obvious it's cigars , so what do you want ?" I ask her once again seeing as my patience is wearing thin and i need to pack .
Her brown curls was up in a messy bun and her faced morphed into a pout,
"Well I just wanted to show you this rose I found outside near the hospital fence , it's red but darker than your hair and has thorns but still beautiful kinda like you ," she says looking at the rose in her hand , twirling it before giggling. Is she fucking serious ?
" Are you..... high ? "
"What?- No , yes , maybe " she replies looking down at her hands smiling cheekily , at this i roll my eyes and push past her and head left and then straight down the hall until i see our room , sighing with relief i push the door open and enter before plopping down on my bed and close my eyes. Fuuuuuuck