HER REVENGE

Chapter Two

    I twist and turn in the bed trying to sleep but failing miserably . I look up at the clock hanging from the wall and groan realizing it's just 6:35 , great they don't give night medications until 8 , which means I'm going to have to suffer for two more hours , just fucking great. Sighing I get up from my position on the bed and kneel on the floor  next to my bed , looking underneath and pulling out the big leather bag I have stored .  It was empty except for a book, well journal Doc gave me . I rub my eyes before placing the bag on the bed and heading over to the drawer on my side of the room , pulling the drawers open and folding each of my small amout of clothes and underwear i have making sure to move extra slow to make time pass faster , I even spitefully refolded some of them . After folding the clothes i pick out an outfit to wear tomorrow,  i then picked out a pajama to sleep in . I then grabbed my essentials like soap , towel and my toothbrush and head to the bathroom .
       Entering the bathroom I remove my clothing and turn to the mirror examining my body , my boney , scarred , small fragile body , thank goodness I had naturally fat cheeks because if my cheeks looked like the rest of my body they'd have probably have me on a tube . I probably weigh less than i should but I'm okay with that , Lies i hate it , i look awful , ugly , disgusting.  I hated myself that's why i cut my skin sense of relief,  a way ot trying to rid myself from this awful body I have .
          And with that tears start spillimg from my eyes , i stoop to the floor and reach under the cupboard and feel until my fingers touch the sharp edge of a razor , a  razor I've hid for years a razor no one knows about , my comfort razor . I take the razor into my hands press it against my skin , slowly lifting my head to look in the mirror , at my face, my eyes pooling with tears and my cheeks stained my hair a mess , my eyes were empty as they've always been . And with that i slit , closing my eyes as tears roll down my cheeks , not a sound leaving my mouth , I've gotten used to the pain , it has become a comfort to me . And that's all it took for me to just slit more a more , reopening already closed cuts. I slit until i felt happy and after that I stopped finally satisfied. 
      I reopen my eyes and run the razor under the tap washing it clean , then i step into the shower and wash up . After having a shower I dry myself and put my pajamas on making sure my shirt was long sleeved. I then brush my teeth and rap the razor into my dirty clothes before walking out into the room . As I walk out I see Lily laying on her side on her bed smiling widely while staring out at god knows what , yup she's high . But that's great atleats I can put my razor in my bag without anyone knowing and thats what i did , i removed it from the dirty clothes and placing it into a pocket inside the bag .
     I take the dirty clothes and throw them into the laundry basket in the room , I then place the bag on the floor , my head turns to the door at the sound of it opening. I'm immediately put to ease at the sight of the nurse coming inside with a tray . No doubt my medication. 
      " Hello girls, how are we doing ?" He asks smiling widely , he's creepy but he's our nurse so yeah . He puts the tray on the dresser before turning to Lily amd sitting on her bed running his hands up and down her thigh , " Well hello there love , you must be having a good time aren't you?" He asks a wicked smirk on his face , Lily nods still smiling , obviously not in her right mind , sighing i roll my eyes in disgust. 
        " Hey doofus leave her the fuck alone or I'll knock your fucking teeth out , " I shout glaring him down making him raise his hands in defeat and slowly back away from her and head back to the pills , i see him pick up a small pill cup and hand it to me with a cup of water and head over to Lily and put the pill in her mouth then pour water down her mouth , Lily swallows then lays back down on the bed , I swallow the pill and then gulp down the water before handing him back the cup . Watching as he takes it and leave the room .
       A few minutes later i hear the sound of lily's snore making me know she's asleep , slowly I start to feel the pill kick in because I find myself fighting to keep my eyes open , I turn on my side and then finally let go allowing the darkness to take over me , pulling me into a world of dreams and happiness. 

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  "Red? Hey red, wake up i need help ," God not again , i groan and roll over to the other side of the bed where there is no noise . I hear a few shuffling and then , " Red c'mon I really need help , I'm bleeding ,and it hurts , please" at that my eyes open and i look up at Lily with bored eyes ,
      "Let me guess you fell and cut yourself?" I asked a yawn escaping .
        " Well no , my period came and I'm out of tampons could you maybe give me one ? Please? " at this I groan , just great her period. 
        With a sigh i get up out of bed and towards my bag pulling out a box of half full tampons handing it to her , " Here you can have the rest ," I say to her , she looks at me in confusion before taking it and then looking back at my bag.
     " By the way , I saw your bags packed , where you going and how long will you be gone ?" She asks , well you see she would think I'm coming back because Dr. Denzo normally took me out on family day because unlike other patients  family's , my family never showed up not once infact I haven't seen neither of them for 4 years .
               " Well Lily , I won't be coming back , I'm leaving for good this time," I tell her , she looks at me surprised and then smile widely at me before coming to hug me in which i back away .
        " Well um. I'm glad for you,  you deserve it so happy for you , don't forget about me though" she says before heading to the bathroom . Not soon after I hear the pipe running . I then sit on the bed rub my hand across my face with a sigh.
     Well fuck today's gonna be a hell of a rollercoaster but I'll survive,  I hope.
            I hear the door to the bathroom  open, and lily enters the room looking fresh and not bloody . She walks over to her bed most likely to smoke again,  sighing I grab my essentials and clothes and head to the bathroom , taking a shower , brushing my teeth and brushing my hair up in a ponytail  and putting on my clothes . Looking at myself in the mirror I examined my outfit which consisted of a white long sleeved croptop with a pink sweatpant and my old white worn out  converse .

Simple yet comfy . With a sigh I leave the bathroom and head over to my bed and then grab my bag , walking out and into the cafeteria just grabbing 3 grapes and eating it before heading to Dr. Denzo's office , I knock first and soon after hear a soft 'come in' . With that I turn the lock and push the door open, entering and closing it behind me, I walk over to her desk where she was seated wearing a blue long sleeved below knee dress , her neck length hair was tucked behind one ear . Her glasses sat on her nose bridge .
          " Oh good morning Clarissa , how are you ? Excited I hope," she says with a wide smile .
      " Yup literally dying with excitement ," I reply sarcastically making her laugh.
         "Well Clary, your mother is on her way , she'll be here in the next 15 minutes," she says with a clap of her hands. Just great .