Silence to the Surface

Hurricane

The next morning was no easier than the one before. I couldn't sleep all night. The scene of Mr. Rosenberg and Denise kept playing. Over. and over. And over again. At least I didn't have my weekly recurring dream but, right now I'd take that dream over this one any day of the week. Up until I got to my school curb, I was flooded with anxiety and fear.

Party in the woods, going to Jessy's house, going to Jadens party, Mr. Rosenburgh and Denise.

I felt like a hurricane trapped in a glass container, just waiting to break out and bring everything down along with it. And the only one who was anywhere like me was Jaden. I saw him a few minutes into the school. He was with his buddies and surprisingly acted very normal, laughing, joking around.

"What up, bitchhh!" Jess surprised me as she jumped in front of my view of Jaden.

Act normal, just act normal. "Hey, Jess." I said nonchalant.

"Are you ready for tonight?" she slurred her words and leaned sideways looking at me with her light cat eyes.

"Are you high?" she cocked an eyebrow at me.

"Not yet, I'm just happy. Excited!" she exclaimed.

She was definitely high. 

"Alright then. Don't get caught." I walked past her towards the stairs. I felt Jaden's gaze at me as I walked past his group. I turned my attention to him for a second but then felt an arm around my neck pulling me the other way.

"Where do you think you're going?" Jess said loudly in my ear.

"Uh, class."

"Not yet! We have to plan where to meet after school so we can go to my house early."

I wanted to say that I wasn't going to the party anymore, the words were on my lips trying to break out. My stomach turned upside down and I felt my heart pound in my chest. The hurricane inside brewing stronger.

"I was thinking by the benches right out front, around like 3:30, you know? Cause the party starts around like, 9, which is really like 10 but still, just meet me there and we'll head over, ok?" Jess was talking so fast, between her and the pain in my head I couldn't keep track of anything as well as the bodies pushing past me.

"Ena? Are you ok?"

I looked up at Jess's concerned blue eyes, but I don't think it was the party causing my anxiety. But of course, classic Jess, she knew what was up.

"Look it will be fine, if you really are having a bad time tonight and you're really that miserable, then we can leave. I promise. Okay?"

I nod just so she can leave, my head is spiraling with agony, I wish I could see people's emotions, to know what they're thinking or feeling, just so I know I'm not alone.

"I'll see you later, k?" Before I could answer her "k", she disappeared under a crowd hustling to their classes. Everyone was so excited for tonight, the girls' clothes showed this as well as the boys' intoxicated state of mind. I didn't see Jaden anywhere.

I waited about 10 minutes for Jess at the benches. I heard over my shoulder Jadens group and party people. Loud, obnoxious, disrespectful boys. Their dry red eyes and bad breath only enhanced my headache and upset stomach. I then saw Jess prance out the door with a group glued to her back, she then dropped them shortly after the closer she came to me. Thank god, I needed to leave before I saw Jaden.

"Hey, are you ready to go?"

"Uh huh. Where's your car?"

"Pink over there." she pointed to a Pink Audi. I didn't even know they made those.

I marched over before Jaden had a chance to come out and see me, and Jess followed me. I could tell she felt the air was heavy, the awkward tension between us, but she didn't ask what was wrong. I appreciated that. 

Jess takes a while to get ready, she thinks of every little detail when it comes to her appearance. Her black jeans had big gashes for red fishnets to be featured underneath. And her white lacy top barely covered anything. She then curled her hair and added a brown headband which matched her brown leather boots. I have to say, I kinda liked her outfit. She turned to me looking me up and down.

"That's what you're wearing?" She looked at my white T-shirt and baggy jeans.

"Yes." I snarked. She rolled her eyes but didn't push me to step out of my comfort zone.

"Alright then, I'm ready."

Jess looked amazing, I saw her clearly outside in the lighting. She looked really pretty. We then got into the car and loud rap music infested my ears. My stomach turned as Jess put in the location on GPS and pulled out of the drive way. 

Oh god, why did I agree to this?