Beautiful Pain

ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 4

It was cold out. She's in her night gown, staring at the view in front of her...but...why?...why was she crying?
Her legs curled up, inside of her gown. She's in a comfortable position. The scenery of the nature intrigues her.

She began sniffling her nose & wiping away her tears.
"I-it's nothing...please just leave me alone..."

This time, I don't leave her be. I pull up a chair & take a seat beside her, staring directly at her.
"You know you don't always have to do things alone..."

She glances at me. "What does a loser like you know?... absolutely nothing."

I chuckle at her words
"Yeah, I am the loser...but who is exactly crying out here by herself, looking pathetic?"

She lets out a little laugh but catches herself & covers her mouth.
"I'd rather be alone & pathetic than talk about my feelings to the likes of you."

Always quite the obnoxious one.

"You know...people actually like talking to me about their feelings."

A lot of people have come to me in the past because they desired for my advice so i'm not lying...it would just take a turn when they would ask me out on a date.
I guess I was just that nice.

"Good for you but I will not be on that list of girls who envy you or your advice." She scoffs.

Oh boy. I am getting deja vu. She reminds me so much of Silas.

"I am happy just figuring things out on my own."

I have realized that it will be extremely hard to break through this barrier of hers but I did make her accidently laugh a little so that should be progress enough.

"Maybe you don't need any advice that comes from me." I tell her. "But I still believe that keeping things bottled up isn't good for you..."
I gently shake my head. "It's an unhealthy lifestyle."

She pouts, pointing her eyes down. "The only thing unhealthy here...is the way you wield a sword."

Ouch.
I am pretty decent in a sword, hence the fact that I fought in a lot of wars since I was a young kid...but I was never professionally trained like she was. She has the advantage that I never did.

"Way to change the subject." I respond, rolling my eyes.

This time, she lets out a genuine laugh that lasts more than one second.
"Well...it's true!"

I shrug my shoulders & sigh. "Well at least I got you to laugh."

She instantly stops & covers her mouth again. "I'm not laughing."

I lean in closer to her. "You're not fooling anyone."
As I look into her eyes, I haven't noticed this before. They're so beautiful. They have a bit of sparkle in them. I almost stare too long until I realize that I may look creepy so I hide it with a small clear of the throat.

"But there is one thing I learned from this conversation..." I inform her.

"And what is that?" She responds.

I slide my fingers through my hair, feeling the breeze of the wind. "I've decided...that I want to be better at wielding a sword."
I grin. "And you're going to teach me."