Noa

fourteen

A/N: THIS IS PT.2 OF THE DOUBLE UPDATE. ENJOY :)

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"I know you're not sorry
Why should you be?
Cause who am I to be in love
When your love never is for me?"

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I chickened out of calling Jaxon yesterday. I just wish he would call me instead. I took his stitches out the last time I saw them, so maybe he's done with me. I don't want to call and seem too clingy or desperate.

I pull jeans over my hips, zipping and buttoning them up. I turn around to look at my back, all of the bruises are finally gone. That means I can wear a tank top. I pull a silk spaghetti strap, green top out of my drawer, slipping it over my head.

I'm going to hang out with Luke today. Hopefully he'll help me take me mind off of everything, Jaxon, Elijah, Kieran, and Ben.

I get into my car, driving over to Luke and I's favorite restaurant to hang out at. While I'm driving over there Ben calls me twice. I should talk to him, but I can't. I can't even think about him without reliving...it.

Before, I know it I'm out of the car and in the restaurant. I sit down in the same booth we always do, ordering a cookies and cream milkshake. Luke's late, he always is.

My milkshake comes, and ten minutes later, Luke saunters into the restaurant, sitting in front of me.

"Thank you for gracing me with your presence." I say sarcastically.

"Well, you know how much I like doing charity work." That earns a laugh out of me.

"So, how have you been doing? What happened with mystery man from the club?" I ask.

"I've been good. And nothing happened with Anthony. How are you?"

"Oh, you are so lying. You are a bad liar, Lucas. So, this Anthony you speak of..." I take a sip of my milkshake.

"Alright, alright. We fucked, he got my number in the morning, and we've hung out three times since then."

"Oh my God. You see, that is not 'nothing'. So you like him?" I speak.

"Well, yeah he's cool. I think it might turn into something if I let it. Anyway, enough about me. What have you been up to? It seems like I haven't seen you in forever."

Should I tell him? I hesitate, "Oh, well nothing much you know just when I was leaving the club I almost got raped and these three guys saved me and then I took them back to my apartment to give one of them stitches and they left a note and then Ben saw it and he hurt me like really bad like the worst he ever has and now every time I go to sleep I relive what he did to me-"

Luke finally cuts me off from my ramble, "Woah, slow down. Breathe. Tell me again, calmly. You were talking too fast I didn't catch it."

So I do, I tell him everything.

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After we left the restaurant, Luke and I went back to my apartment. We watched a movie and now it was just beginning to get dark outside.

"Are you sure you don't need me to stay? I don't have to work tomorrow I can stay the night." Luke confirms.

"Yeah, I'm fine just go home." Luke steps forward to where I was sitting on the couch and bends down to hug me.

"Okay, I'll see you later. I love you." He pulls away and moves towards the door, opening it.

"I love you too. See ya." The door slams shut. I'm alone again. Maybe I should get a dog.

I put on a another movie to cure my loneliness, but I only get about 20 minutes in before my doorbell rings. I wasn't expecting anyone.

I get up from the couch and open the door. Ben. I stare at him for what feels like an hour, but it's only been a couple of seconds. He's crying.

"Please, Noa. Let me in. I don't know what I did to you. You changed the locks. Just let me in. I just wanna talk." He says, sobbing.

I let him in, feeling bad he's so broken up over this. He sits down on the couch. I sit next to him, before getting straight to the point.

"We're done Ben."

"What? No we're not. I love you. No one else is going to love you, you know that." His facade crumbles towards the end of his sentence. Now he just looks mad.

"I don't want to be with you anymore. That's why I changed the locks." Stay strong, Noa.

He gets up, I stay sitting down. I reach behind me and grab my phone from the couch, preparing for the worst. He turns so his back is to me, now's my chance. I unlock my phone, going to my recent call list and pressing a random number, someone help me.

"What did I ever do to you?" I'm pissed off right now.

I stand up from the couch quickly and walking until I'm in front of me, rage fueling my actions.

"What did you do to me? What did you do- You fucking raped me you asshole!" I yell at him.

Then I see his face change, and my confidence is gone. I take a few steps back, away from him. He sends his right fist across my face, with so much force, my teeth vibrate.

"I did not rape you. You wanted it, slut. Don't ever repeat that to me or anyone else ever again. We're not done. I'll come over tomorrow." He says and goes out the door.

I turn and see my phone on the couch. It's in a call. I pick up my phone and read what it says. Jaxon. Call duration: 6:45. I hang up immediately.

He doesn't need to worry. I'll be fine. I'll just get up early tomorrow and leave so I won't have to face Ben.

I touch my face and pull back my hand to look at my fingers, at least there's no blood this time. I sit back down on the couch and press play on the movie I was watching. I don't want to dwell on it.

Then I hear the doorbell ring. Oh no. He's back again. I stay sitting down. The doorbell rings again. And again. I don't want to see him. Then I hear pounding on the door.

"Noa! Open the door please." Jaxon. I instantly get up and unlock the door, pulling it open.

"Jeez, you're going to make me get evicted." I try to lighten the mood.

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Ben is soooooo done forrrr AHAHHA IM EXCITED.
- A :)